little life update at 2am::
been pretty depressed since my health issues started flaring up again some months ago now T-T that added with the perpetual bleak state of the country
idk man i just wanna draw on people and tattooing has been getting a bit slower so im trying not to blame myself for it bc really i know it’s literally everything going on— that said im pacing myself and not forcing myself to think about work too much when im at home
although it is really hard not to when i feel guilty for partaking in other hobbies bc all im thinking about is i really should be drawing
i love what i do but god damn is it really hard to take a break for myself and my mental exhaustion— lowkey getting overwhelmed rn :’)
i finally started playing love and deepspace after my clients yelling at me/j highkey i didnt play it for a while bc the fandom is unhinged from what ive heard but im choosing to ignore all of that and just enjoy the game
ive also been going to the gym bc i could feel my body hurting just from sitting hunched over all day and it’s definitely getting to the point that im looking forward to going so that’s a positive - literally didnt think id ever be a gym girlie
kinda also looking forward to when my labs stable out a bit more bc my self esteem is v low
my symptoms are very high rn and i see the physical changes BUT im trying to stay positive