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30. Look back on this last month and talk about it.

The last month has been testing, to say the least. Re-introduced to school, a routine, dealing with emotions and my mind and learning both at school and home.

I think February was a huge stepping stone for the next few months, what I've done and managed over this month will pave out how my next months will go. I think things will get easier in some aspects from here, but perhaps harder in some others.

The back end of this month has been tough, emotion wise. A lot of new things have come to my attention and I've had mood swings like a bitch. I have more good days now than I did ~3months ago though so there are positives in there. It's hard dealing with a lot of new stuff so suddenly but doing one thing at a time, and doing it properly is working well.

The next few months should be easier than February has been in theory. As May gets closer I get more and more excited, my mood will be related to the days left until then by the middle of April.

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29. If you could be doing the same things you do now, only in your own way, how would a normal day in your life go?

Pretty much the same really. To a point I'm content how everything is going at the moment, sure I'd like to be able to sleep in more often, but I wouldn't change all that much.

I have to continue doing what I am doing to get where I want, so I'll persist regardless.

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28. Would you rather someone tell you the truth up front but gently, or be lied to too spare your feelings?

Relevance/coincidence of this question is spooky, imo.

It depends a LOT on what it actually is, there's different kinds of lies and people lie for a lot of different reasons. No one likes to be lied to, but there are often times when being lied to is better than the truth. 

There's a difference between being untruthful and lying, and I have a pretty firm view and opinion on lies. I think if it were something that would hurt, but is something I should know, then I'd rather the truth. It will of course hurt, but hearing it from the person is so much better than someone else, even more so if it's by accident or "you didn't know?".

If the person values you enough, then they will be willing to accept whatever reply comes their way. It can depend on time as well- meaning how long they've been untruthful about it too. 

In my opinion, lying is directly telling something that isn't true. Where being untruthful is where you play with words so you're not directly asked the question or you're just not telling something that should be told. Unless you're actually told something then there's no lie.

I despise liars, it's one of the worst traits you can have. If you break someone's trust then whatever relationship you have will break all the same. If you can't trust someone, you can't rely on them and that covers the basis of nearly any relationship. I do however strongly oppose the "Once a liar, always a liar" saying. Once you realise how much trust is really worth, you can appreciate it and change your ways.

I know someone who compulsively lies, about everything. To make himself sound cooler, better, smarter, wealthier and I cannot stand him. Once you figure out someone lies a lot, you can never have a decent conversation with them. You have no respect for them, and more often than not, they're idiots anyway.

Most of the time I'd prefer the truth, I prefer to know things than be left in the dark. Being untruthful and hiding things away is necessary in some cases. Cheating I think is one of the worst things that can be lied about, and keeping it tucked away while you continue a relationship with the person who you're 'committed' too is completely vulgar.

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27. Is there a friend you are worried about? Why do they have you concerned? Do you think they’ll be okay?

Not really, my current friends are all in the right direction, matured enough to realise the importance of school (myself included) and are knuckling down to it.

However I have old friends in an opposite position, but I don't bother myself with worrying about them, it's their choice and me alone won't change anything. They'll realise one day (when it's too late) their mistakes and short comings and they will have regrets, but you live and learn.

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26. Talk about a moment where you were truly happy. What was happening? Who were you with?

Ahh. Of course the moments spent with Katya are the happiest ones I can recollect. There were many, it was a constant happiness really, but two or three stand out clearly.

Will start off in a logical order- Our first hour. From running at each other arms open to the car on the way home. Waiting for her to exit customs was so intense, insanely excited combined with nervous. But after all that, after all those months finally having the only thing you've wanted for half a year in your arms- complete. Walking out of the airport hand in hand. To sitting in the car with the realisation of what's happening and the awe of her sitting beside me.

Our adventures. Wandering around Sovereign Hill (gold rush tourist thing) holding hands, listening to Katya's mom lecture our friend (still lol at this >.<). The aquarium on our last day together, manoeuvring through the crowds (school holidays ftl) just spending real, couple-like time together, doing coupley things. Walking around Melbourne trying to figure out the trams. Kissing at intersections while waiting for the pedestrian crossing to go.

And last but not least- knowing I'm going to have all that and more, again.

It's our 8 months together today and I love her more than I ever have. Saturday was 3 Months until we're together again and I cannot wait.

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25. What do you think it means to be a good parent?

I think a good parent will aid their child through the start of their life and allow them to make decisions for themselves. Giving a child room to shape their personality around who they are as a person, around what they naturally have interest and feelings for. Having a child doesn't mean they have to be the same as you, or like the same things, or want the same things.

One of very few utterly important things of being a parent in my opinion is always, always supporting their choices and them in general. Educate them on general things but let them in the end make the choice on their own. Don't dictate everything that they can and cannot do.

I think I'd be a really laid back parent, but at the same time know when and where to draw that line. I've grown up pretty much on my own instinct and choices and I think it's fine. Being a strict parent only results in pressure which is released somewhere and quite often in a worse place and way than letting them do their own thing.

You have to give respect to get respect, and between child and parent respect plays a great deal in everything.

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24. Are you more social or independent? Why do you think that is?

It depends on the situation. Sometimes I'll be overly social and others I'll keep to myself and do my own thing.

I don't like socializing with idiots, wankers, drop-kicks. Besides the point you can't have a sensible conversation all they contribute is nonsense. So I keep to myself generally around them.

I can survive fine by myself, and sometimes I prefer to be by myself. Others I long the socializing, discussing, joking. I like a good conversation and I like debating a small subject.

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23. Explain your life plan for the next month, then the next year, then three years, then five years.

My life plan, hmm. I don't necessarily believe in making 'life plans', it's too unpredictable and includes so many variables. I have an idea though, of what I want and the direction I'm heading for, so.

The next month: School, keep on-top of school and pay attention. Have a night out somewhere in there too.

The next year: This has a lot of dependencies so really unsure. Again, school. Finish this year decently. Visit Katya in May, have a lovely time. Arrange something so we're together again next New Years. & Other stuff.

The next three years: Finish school completely with best ATAR score I can get, hopefully enough for an engineering course at University. Although I intend on have a gap year to travel. 

Five years: Be 'half-way' through uni, in some sort of close proximity to Katya and planning a future.