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broken gone breaker
You were once inlove and that love broke you to pieces because of the thought that what’s yours for now will always be yours tomorrow and it just isn’t that simple but that didn’t stop you from loving her.
You begged and bend down your knees “i love you so fucking much and I don’t know if my life would be the same without you, I’m begging you to stay” you swallowed your pride, you let her see the tears come streaming down your face, you let her see the other side of you that you are trying to hide; that you are not that strong and cold as anyone thought you are. You have ability to love a person so much that your heart hurts and your mind stops from thinking straight.
She didnt move and didnt look back but she said “but I want you to change, You’re just not you anymore and the happiness that I felt the first time we kiss is just isn’t the same now and I couldn’t fool you and myself anymore, don’t be selfish. Just let me go” then she continue walking away from you.
You keep remembering the memories you had with her and after many days that sadness turns to anger because you knew you just did what she wants you to be and make her happy in anyway you could do and now the reason that she’s leaving you is because you’ve changed when she was the one who change you. It just isn’t fair.
After that you dont want to be serious in relationship and love anymore. You think that no one could really stay loyal and stay in love forever, everyone has the capability to cheat and leave you so you didn’t gave others the ability to hurt you. Now, the once that were inlove became the one who breaks everything.
Then you saw a girl, you thought she’s just another girl who you could just fool and then leave her broken after she fall for you but after you had a few talk with her you realized she’s different.
That flirting conversation became a deep conversation that you’re craving for a long time.
“why are you doing this” she said
“what do you mean?”
“this, this thing, make a girl fall in love with you then leave her afterwards, how could a person do that, how could you do that?”
“why are you so surprise, other people do it too, not just me”
“yeah but I didn’t expect you to turn into a fuckboy” she calmly said
You got surprised, you look at her surprisingly wondering why she said that “you didn’t even know me”
“I know you, trust me, i once know you.” she looks at your eyes as if she already saw your soul.
You look at the floor trying not to let her see your eyes because you know she’ll see who really are you and you’re not just ready for that. You didn’t speak for a while.
“You might be surprised, but I’m the girl who once dreamt to be with you, to feel the love that you would give to your ex and still am because i know that you are so strong, not in the way that you could punch anyone at the face and then breaks it immediately but the one who is strong because of the capability to love fully and never feel the urge of leaving someone behind, and i know you still are that person” she said
and you couldnt help it, you tears started to fall. “but im just not the same anymore, and I better be this way. I want to be this way”
“You dont want to be that way, I know. You're just doing that because you’re trying to leave behind the person that you were yesterday, you’re just afraid to be left and broken and trust me it is normal, but dont you miss your old self? the one that has no grudge to anyone, you hate the person that left you but did you think that you’re now the kind of person that you hate yesterday?”
the words you need to hear and now you heard it and it finally sink in. You feel sorry for everyone who has nothing to do with your past but make them feel unwanted because that’s what you felt when the girl once you love left you but now it is all clear.
“fuck, why did i just think of it now?” you stand up and look at her having the hope in our eyes “I promise, I’ll see you again and the moment that I see you will be the moment that I’ll be that person again, you know, the one that you dreamt about? I’ll regain myself. I’ll make myself whole again, I’ll talk to everyone that I hurt and say sorry to them and make them feel that its not their fault. Fuck this, Ive done so much wrong and now because of you, I’ll right them now. Thank you for clearing this out to me....
.... I’ll see you soon”
erwin will sound like sebastian
and levi will have a low voice
