I don't get excited with new things. They scare me, really. I don't like changes, because it hurts. Several changes happened this year and I'm ok with that, but it was scary and unconfortable, and I don't get the point of celebrating new years. I feel like it's any other day. Because I know that this 2013 I'll barely sleep again, because of my college. But here's what I know: this year have been great. One of the best. I finally met some awesome people IRL and in here (love you all). I got a new apartment. Bought great books, won nice clothes, proved myself I can't be weak anymore. I have someone to take care of and this year I realised that this person is not my mother or my father or my brother. I have to take care of myself. I've had a lot of trouble trying to keep my family so close to me. I'm still frozen on some aspects of my life, I'll need a change. I know I can do it by myself, but sometimes I'll need someone to talk to, and it hurts me to know I'll be on my own this year. I still can't count on people. I don't trust some of them enough. The one I trusted is gone. And I miss him. But he was loved and I cared about him until his very last breath. It is painful, but I can't stand crying in the corner. I'll be brave for one more year. Give it a try. Who knows, this year could be as good as 2012.