Discover Top Posts Tagged with #charm rambles

I didnt know binnie was an uncle but i bet he's the best uncle ever. I bet they're so cute together 🥹

Yall i think this blog might get delulu again bc I'm impossibly even more in love with chris after last night. Like wtf how is he even more charming in person?

#charm rambles #my delulu era

Imagine if Bang Chan had someone who really knew how to style curls. Like, know how to style curls is life changing. I started going to a lady who only works on curly hair last year and it has completely changed the way i see my hair and myself. I wish someone could make channie see his natural beauty too 😔

#charm rambles

I just wanted you to know the sheer excitement I got when your bio said '92 because that means you're slightly older than me and I don't feel like such a freak anymore and there's way more to this than can fit in this ask and don't wanna bug you just.... hope you stay here 💜 I'm bingeing like all your writing and they're beautiful and I love them

Aaaaahhhh I'm really glad it made you feel welcome. 💖

Im honestly having such a struggle with my fandom these days. Specifically in terms of writing fan fiction. I have adulted more in the past 9 months than i every have in my life and its hard for my brain to go from my day job and worrying about bills and my family to like, writing fake scenarios about these guys. I still love them and all the other kpop groups im into but i just feel like im at such a stand still in terms of writing fan fiction. Like i feel like if im going to spend time writing i should spend it on writing novels I've always wanted to write so that i can actually follow my one remaining dream and also try to help myself financially.

Anyway thats just some stuff thats been on my mind recently and why i havent been posting here or on any of my other blogs. I hope you enjoy reading my old stuff!

#charm x anon #charm rambles

heyy i was wondering if ill be able to vent here about smth concerning skz. If not then ignore this.

Look ive been stanning skz for so long then enhypen when they debuted but nowadays i feel like im not into skz like i was before and im more with enhypen which is weird bc i always balanced them. Like im not excited when they post or go live anymore, im skipping their songs when it comes on. I feel like im drifting away from skz which is weird bc my whole life was dedicated to skz at some point. And idk what to do like i dont want to make this weird but like im so scared to drift away from them. Like im dont even check their posts anymore im just enhypen crazy not both enha and skz.

I'm about to be real fucking honest with you all rn.

None of this shit matters.

Now i love several kpop acts. There was a time when i thought i would never care about any groups besides BTS and then i found skz and then there have been several others. I'm well aware that there may come a day when i don't care about any of these groups anymore, and thats okay.

When i was 13 i was REALLY into my chemical romance and the used. I wrote SO MUCH fan fiction. I had all the stuff. Time went on, i didnt care about their music anymore. Maybe i grew up, maybe it just didnt speak to me anymore. Mostly, i just got into different things.

In my mid-twenties i was REALLY into Grateful Dead. I went to multiple Dead &Co. concerts multiple years in a row. I made and sold tie-dye. I did a lot of drugs. Now, i barely ever listen to them. For me, they represent a time in my life i dont feel that connected to anymore.

I've only been into kpop for about 5 years. Thats actually pretty stable for me. When BTS first announced their hiatus of group activities, i really thought I would drift away from them and kpop, and to a certain extent i have. I dont listen to their music much anymore. I skip songs. I don't get excited every time one of them does something on the internet. Maybe it will come back when they are all discharged, maybe it won't. It's okay either way, because here's the thing:

In spite of the deep parasocial relationships with idols that the kpop industry wants you to cultivate and nurture, these are not people I know. These are not my friends, even though i find comfort, joy and satisfaction in them. These are not real relationships in my life that will negatively affect the person on the other end of the relationship if i let it naturally wither away.

All this is to say, it's perfectly okay if you find yourself drifting away from a group or idol or the genre as a whole. This is a hobby. One that many of us put a lot of heart and soul and money and time into. But as with any hobby, it's only worth what you personally get out of it and you shouldn't be afraid to let go of things that do not serve you. If skz no longer sparks joy in you, that's not a critique on them or on you, it's just the way it goes. Sometimes you lose interest in things you once loved. That's simply a part of life.

#charm x anon #charm rambles

Hyunjin angst in the morning