Aug 2, 2018
And so, the GDL happened.
seen from China
seen from Singapore
seen from United States
seen from Belgium
seen from Ukraine
seen from Brazil
seen from United States
seen from Malaysia
seen from Italy
seen from France
seen from United States
seen from Mexico
seen from Argentina
seen from China
seen from Germany
seen from China
seen from Singapore
seen from Malaysia
seen from Sweden
seen from Australia
And so, the GDL happened.
So upset, I don’t wanna go to work tomorrow cause I just wanna hide under my blanket the whole day and not see or talk to anyone
When opportunities hit, I’ll be excited and honoured that I’m even considered. With this enthusiasm, I’ll have a full range of how I’d do things, face things and how it’ll all pan out to be. And the process goes on, enthusiasm level goes down, and I’ll realise how things are not what I expect it to be. Now that it’s almost here, I’ll be thinking, “Shit. Why did I agree to this in the first place?!” Then again, it’s not like I had a choice. And adding to that, holidays end tomorrow.
I’ve been researching on the general behaviour I’ve been getting from the people in SK (mostly service staff). It’s really annoying to be treated like that and I’m not so sure if it’s because it’s just not my norm or they’re just really rude and obnoxious. So far, the people in Busan are the best. But I won’t say so for Jeju and Seoul. I’ve seen people quarrelling, shouting loudly, not giving up seats to the needy(I’m quite surprised at this because I thought it’s common sense and not culture), and service staff at shops whose face is perpetually black and seemed to be shooing you away if you aren’t getting anything. I was prepared to shop away since I won’t be able to do so when I get back. But the shopping was anything but a pleasurable one. The moment you touched a piece and put it back, like hawk eyes, the staff would pick it up and smoothen it even before you walk away from that spot, as though you’re there to mess everything up. Of course, not everyone is like that. I’m not sure if it’s the difference between the well-exposed and the non well-exposed. But I’d have to say that I feel really offended and like what some comments online said, I probably shouldn’t use my yardstick to judge them. It’s probably a norm in their country.
That being said, I doubt here will be my first choice of getaway in the near future.
Stormy weather. Cold and wet climate. Just keep moving.
So not ready to grow up.
When people say my job is easy, good life, really, how hard can it be. What the shit man. Seriously damn you. I’m working for the society. The hours, hardworking, energy, heart-work and with such little pay. Really damn you.
No kidding man. I get very offended whenever people say that this job is easy/good life.
You feel bad. You beat yourself up mentally. You know you could have done better or at least something to change the situation. But the fact is, you did not and things panned out this way. People are telling you that you’re not to blame. They’re telling you that others should have taken the ownership and responsibility. But you know, you could have changed it. Despite whatever others told you, you can’t help but to feel partly accountable for. You are in a state of limbo. You don’t know if you’re feeling bad because they feel horrid about the situation or that you truly feel guilty. Are you praying for avoidance or acceptance? In fact, do you want to avoid or accept? Are you afraid of things not coming to a closure or is the guilt of not doing something at first eating you up? It’s a mix of both, you think. And it’s really feasting on your soul and energy. Look forward Charmaine. Like what you’ve told others, mistakes are opportunities for lessons. Pick yourself where you have fallen. You know the whole reason why you stepped into this in the first place. Remember how bad it was? Remember how hard you’ve had it? How much you wanted to quit and leave it all behind? And then you got it. You managed to find the key to connect, deliver, inspire and impact others. You found the passion and the exact reason why you switched in the first place, and how it managed to keep you going. Don’t lose it. Don’t let go of your beliefs. Because you know you’re growing from these. Maybe not extrinsically. But definitely intrinsically. You’re going to grow from this. Grow from this glitch in your life. How ever big or small, you will grow intrinsically. You will learn and get better that this. You also need to understand, you’re human too. Things happen. Shitty things happen. From others and due to you, it does. That’s the way for life. Don’t be afraid of it. Don’t push it away. Embrace it. Be thankful of all that come, the good and the bad. Tell yourself things can be worse. You could be disabled, penniless or alone. With nothing or no one by your side, sticking by you and embracing you when you’re down. But now, you have it all. So look at what you have. Forgive yourself for the people you love and the people who care for you. Tell yourself you’ll be better and stronger. You will be.