it may be the pre-birthday clarity hitting me chat am i unc now? but i cant help but feel grateful and sentimental towards all the people around me.
to spare you from the emotional word vomit that i wrote before revising: im so happy to be where i am now, to be who i am now. im happy im out of the dark hole i dug for myself because now ive realized how much love surrounds me in the simplest acts. im happy ive finally looked up to meet all the eyes that have waited for me grow.
im so happy, im so damn happy i was born.
im thankful to baby lala that somehow survived toddler years without giving herself brain damage, im grateful to kid lala for making it through the white suburbs with all her strange whimsy and chaos, and ill always be incredibly proud of debut lala for staying even when it was shit, for trying her hardest everyday, for enduring each stumble even if it seemed there was no hope it would end.
ive found myself in a strange yet exciting place thanks to them. one that i can truly enjoy as myself and with people i will hold onto as long as i can.
so yippee i survived another year and im so genuinely excited to see the next one through, its bumpy roads and shining skies and all.
happy two hours early birthday to me! i made it to june!!