Dec 14, 2022
So many bots are following me these last few days it's so??????
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So many bots are following me these last few days it's so??????
I have so many feelings about Steve and Bucky being allowed to step away from fighting and working and war and finally being allowed to be together and to heal and to nourish themselves and their love and them finding a community and a home.
Disabled people shouldn't have to face this constant mockery and our concerns over ableism shouldn't be dismissed. It's that fucking easy.
I just feel like I never actually fit in anywhere. Not even in fandom.
Not sure if anyone in particular will really care about this but I have decided to post my final Evanstan and Stucky works between now and April.
This fandom is clearly not gonna bring me the joy it used to anymore. I should have done the smart thing and left ages ago but I kept hoping I'd get that spark of joy again and that I'd somehow feel safe and happy again. It has become clear to me that that is not gonna happen.
I wanna fulfil some commitments and finish some things I started. But after that, it is time for me to move on.
I think I might delete this blog. I'm not 100% yet. For now it is running on a queue and I'll probably only log in to post fics and such. But you can talk to me if you want and I will try to respond.
I also want to add four more notes:
- I am sorry that I made people unhappy. That was never the intention. I just wanted to feel safe and enjoy fandom again.
- If I block someone on here or on Twitter it is probably because these websites keep recommending blogs / accounts, even when you are trying to respect boundaries, create boundaries or just choosing to not engage. It's not on those people. It's just weird websites not functioning properly.
- I won't be talked out of this. Like I said, I should just have done this a long time ago. I was weirdly optimistic about things and I think it just worsened things.
- I don't know what will happen to @evanstan-daily and @amazingstuckyevents. It kinda depends on whether Seashell, Piper and I make a mod account and on whether Seashell wants to keep running things or not. It's taking up a lot of spoons for us both, especially with Piper leaving and we gotta see if we have those spoons.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me and been my friend. Goodbye and good luck. You'll still see me between now and whenever I finish all my stuff. Just not much. It's time for me to move on.
Welcome to my blog. I hope you enjoy your stay in my cozy little online home. This is blog 18+.
About me: I am a 20-something student. You can call me Riley or Bug. I use they/them pronouns. I like being creative and chatting about the things I enjoy and create. My blog mostly runs on a queue but feel free to send me messages and asks and I'll be happy to talk with you. I believe in loving things wholeheartedly and protecting my peace. If you are nice, I'd love to be your friend 💙
Current fandoms & blog topics: Stucky, Taylor Swift, Evanstan, Arctic Monkeys, Merlin BBC, Marvel Comics, Art, Chris Evans, Sebastian Stan, Music, The Sandman, Aesthetic Posts, Nature, Politics, Mental Health, Self Care, Movies & TV Shows, Books, D&D, Autism, Disability, Jigsaw Puzzles & More.
Links: My AO3, My Fic Masterlist, My Instagram, My Creations, @evanstan-daily, @amazingstuckyevents
Common tags: chattering bug / a bug's jukebox / a bug's creations / a bug's inbox / a bug's nanowrimo adventures
Obligatory Brussels pics. Not pictured hugs and snow. (I also likely won't take many more pictures but I wanted to at least have some (slightly crappy) snapshots of these days.)
Hating Steve Rogers? Immediate red flag.