❝ i really like you, kimi, ❞ but the insecurities flow through her veins, running deeper and more true than the blood in them, sometimes. this was one of those times. she knew that kimi was OPEN HEARTED, that she loved with so much of her that it couldn’t be contained to one person. part of her was sure that was why she loved liked her so much, that there could be so much LOVE inside of one person. that some of that love was being given to her. ❝ i don’t want you to ever think that i’m not okay with how you’ve decided to live your life, but, ❞ it’s hard to find the words, and instead she slips her hand into the other’s and laces their fingers as they rested on their knees. she’d woken up in the middle of the night ( 6 AM, BUT FESTIVAL LIFE MADE THAT MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT ) and it’d stirred the other girl from her own sleep. ❝ i don’t want you to feel like you have to only see me. i want to be accepting of you, of every part of you. but it’s hard, i guess. because i’m worried that you’ll look at someone else and like them MORE than me. ❞ she breaks eye contact, ASHAMED that she’s the reason they have to have this conversation when she was supposed to be having the time of her life ––– and she was. ❝ i guess what i’m saying is i’m nervous, but it’s not because i don’t think you like me or that you’d just do something without telling me ––– i know that’s not what this is, or who you are, but i’m just worried that someone better is going to come along. and that’s not just a you thing, that’s a me with anyone thing. but with you ––– it’s different. because you do, and will, make romantic connections with others. which means it’s more likely that you’ll leave me BEHIND. ❞ she reaches a hand up, brushes at the tears blurring her vision on her lower lash line with the palm of her free hand. ❝ i'm sorry, this is STUPID. ❞