They say that to be whole, you must first be broken. This year has, without a doubt, changed every single fibre of my being. My ability to love and trust has significantly changed. I'm not nearly as open and available as I once was. I've lost people I never thought I'd lose, and learnt that it's very easy for people to walk away like it never mattered. I've taken the fall for other people's actions and words, and believed far too many broken promises. I've drank too much, and done things I never thought I would do. To say that I've had some of my lowest moments to date is an understatement.
Although there has been a lot of negativity this year, there has also been many positives. I've met some beautiful people that have become such important parts of my universe in a short amount of time, developed deeper relationships with others, and gained a second family in my emergency services world. For that, I am beyond thankful. You all know who you are.
In 2019, the only person that's getting every single part of me is myself. It's time for healing, self-discovery, and self-respect. It's time to walk away from all that brings negative energy with it. With that, here's to 2019. Sober, more tattooed, and with a whole damn lot of self-love. ✌