Oh my god the KarFef feels. I need a basket to hold them.
▲: )(i
▼: HI FEFERI. HAVE YOU SEEN TEREZI?
▲: Knot for a w)(ale
▼: FIGURES.
▼: WHY IS IT THAT I ALWAYS END UP TALKING WITH ONE OF MY DEAD FRIENDS WHEN I TRY TO FIND HER?
▲: Are you in a )(urry?
▼: WELL, I'M NOT PARTICULARLY EAGER TO HAVE THIS CONVERSATION, SO NO.
▲: Maybe we cod glub for a w)(ale
▼: ALRIGHT.
▼: WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO GLUB- ER, TALK ABOUT?
▲: )(ow are you doing? Knot being dead and everyt)(ing. Glub
▼: STRESSED THE FUCK OUT. THAT HUMAN DAVE HAS BEEN LEADING TEREZI ON, POSSIBLY TO SPITE ME, AND NEITHER WILL LISTEN.
▼: NOT TO MENTION WE HAVE TO FIGHT A GIANT GREEN SKULL MONSTER.
▼: AND NOW I'M TALKING TO ONE OF THE PEOPLE I GOT KILLED, WHICH IS ALWAYS *SO* RELAXING.
▲: O)(. T)(at's distressing. I'm sad rig)(t now, t)(ank you for angling aboat me.
▼: ANGLING.
▲: Yes.
▼: YOU KNOW, YOUR FISH PUNS AREN'T ALWAYS SO EASY TO UNDERSTAND.
▲: Maybe if you stopped yelling Glub
▼: I'M NOT YELLING RIGHT NOW, ACTUALLY. THIS IS MY QUIRK, REMEMBER?
▲: I can't kelp t)(e glubs.
▲: Yes but you can use it and be yelling. Glub
▼: EXCEPT I HAVEN'T BEEN YELLING. I'M JUST STRESSED.
▲: Okay, w)(ale, I'm sad.
▼: HOW COME?
▲: No one pikes me.
▼: ARE YOU KIDDING? WE ALL LIKED YOU. EVEN EQUIUS, THOUGH HE WAS TOO DAMN PROUD TO SHOW IT.
▲: Because -Eridan is avoiding me and Sollux won't glub to me.
▼: ERIDAN KIND OF KILLED YOU. AND SOLLUX ISN'T DEAD YET. I THINK. IS HE?
▼: I THINK HE'S WITH NEWLY ALIVE ARADIA RIGHT NOW.
▲: No. But I don't )(ave a matesprit.
▲: W)(at?
▼: NO, I MEAN HE'S HELPING HER WITH SOMETHING.
▲: O)(.
▼: AND I THINK IF YOU LOOK AROUND THE DREAM BUBBLES YOU MIGHT FIND THE OTHERS.
▲: Maybe, but you are )(ere rig)(t now.
▼: ALSO, WHY IS IT THAT I CAN'T SEEM TO STAY AWAKE FOR FIVE FIVE FUCKING MINUTES?
▼: AND I AM HERE RIGHT NOW, YES.
▲: So, you s)(ould make me eel less alone w)(ale you're )(ere.
▼: SO YOU'RE LONELY?
▲: Yes.
▼: HASN'T ARADIA SHOWED UP TO DO HER LITTLE "WELCOME TO THE AFTERLIFE" SPIEL?
▼: BECAUSE APPARENTLY SHE DOES THAT.
▲: I guess s)(e's busea wit)( Sollux.
▼: DAMN IT, NOW I FEEL EVEN MORE GUILTY. SERIOUSLY, AM I BEING PUNISHED FOR GETTING ALL OF YOU KILLED?
▲: No.
▼: I MEAN, YEAH, I DESERVE IT, BUT IT GETS PRETTY DEPRESSING AFTER A WHILE.
▲: Maybe you would eel less guilty if you made me eel less lonely.
▼: YEAH, THAT'S WHAT I SEEM TO BE BEST AT.
▼: FIRST ONE OF THE DEAD DAVES, THEN TAVROS, THEN... THEN NEPETA....
▼: SO HOW COULD I MAKE YOU EEL LESS LONELY?
▼: i MEAN FEEL.
▲: Maybe you cod guess?
▼: WELL, MAYBE TALK ABOUT SOMETHING YOU REGRET? THAT'S WHAT I DID WITH THE OTHERS.
▲: I regret knot )(aving a matesprit to enjoy t)(ings wit)(. Glub.
▼: HEH. THAT SOUNDS LIKE SOMETHING ERIDAN WOULD REGRET.
▼: I MEAN, BESIDES KILLING YOU AND BLINDING SOLLUX.
▲: W)(ale. -Eridan rejected me.
▼: I ACTUALLY THINK IT WAS YOU WHO REJECTED HIM. THAT'S HOW HE ACTED, ANYWAY.
▼: O HOW COULD WE WORK PAST THIS?
▼: :SO
▲: )(e didn't know )(ow to react, so I said to leave it.
▼: *SO
▼: ALRIGHT. WHAT DO YOU THINK HE WOULD SAY NOW?
▲: Prawnbably t)(e same?
▼: I DON'T KNOW. I MEAN, AFTER YOU AND HE DID... WHATEVER IT WAS YOU DID... HE WAS ROUNDLY REJECTED BY THE REST OF US.
▼: I THINK HE WAS PROBABLY AS LONELY AS YOU ARE NOW.
▼: I MEAN, FIRST HE LOSES HIS MOIRAIL, THEN GETS REJECTED BY HIS FRIENDS....
▲: I don't want to be )(is second c)(oice.
▼: I DON'T THINK YOU WERE. I THINK THE REST OF US WERE.
▼: I THINK WHEN YOU TOLD HIM TO LEAVE IT, HE TOOK IT AS A REJECTION.
▲: )(e didn't take t)(e c)(ance once, and t)(at's t)(at.
▼: MAYBE HE JUST DIDN'T KNOW HOW. I MEAN, HE WASN'T THE BEST CONVERSATIONALIST, AND HE WAS PRETTY FUCKING DENSE.
▲: I would pike salmon w)(o )(asn't rejected me.
▲: I don't want a forever matesprit. Just salmon to make up for w)(at I lost. Glub glub glub.
▼: HUH.
▼: WELL I COULD INTRODUCE YOU TO ONE OF THE DEAD DAVES, IF YOU WANT.
▲: I do knot want a )(uman.
▼: I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO GO ABOUT THIS. I GUESS YOU COULD GO TRACK DOWN SOLLUX?
▼: OR MAYBE WE COULD TALK ABOUT WHY YOU WANT ONE IN THE FIRST PLACE.
▲: )(e is after Aradia and we all know t)(at
▼: I THINK ARADIA HAD A THING WITH EQUIUS. I'M NOT SURE IF IT'S STILL ON, BUT WHO KNOWS?
▼: AND I GUESS THAT JUST LEAVES TALKING.
▼: I MEAN, AS FAR AS I KNOW YOU DIDN'T CARE ABOUT MATESPRITSHIP WHEN YOU WERE ALIVE.
▼: WHY THE SUDDEN INTEREST?
▲: I did care t)(en.
▲: I just never reelly found anyone to glub aboat aboat it wit)(.
▲: You know I dont just go glubing aboat anyt)(ing to anyone.
▼: I NEVER ASSUMED YOU DID.
▼: HNMM. WELL ERIDAN IS DEAD NOW TOO, AS IS TAVROS AND EQUIUS. NEPETA'S DEAD AS WELL. VRISKA IS, TOO. MAYBE ONE OF THEM....?
▼: I MEAN, IF YOU'RE WILLING TO FORGIVE ERIDAN FOR BEING SUCH A PIECE OF SHIT.
▲: I don't want to forgive )(im.
▼: I DIDN'T THINK SO.
▲: But you are )(ere rig)(t now.
▼: I M INDEED HERE RIGHT-
▼: YOU'RE HITTING ON ME, AREN'T YOU.
▲: I'm knot knot )(itting on you.
▼: WELL THIS IS WEIRD. SO APPARENTLY I'M JUST GOING TO GO AROUND KISSING DEAD GIRLS NOW. THAT'S.... NEW.
▲: You )(aven't kissed me.
▼: NOT YET, BUT I GET THE FEELING THAT'S GOING TO CHANGE.
▲: In a wave our blood fits baitter t)(an anyone else does wit)( ours.
▼: I SUPPOSE YOU HAVE A POINT THERE.
▼: I THINK.
▲: We are bot)( unnatural blooded
▼: NO, I AM UNNATURAL BLOODED. YOUR BLOOD MAKES YOU ROYALTY. MINE WOULD'VE GOTTEN ME CULLED.
▲: No one else can understand t)(e eeling of never being t)(e same as anyone else.
▼: I GUESS NOT.
▲: Mine )(as a strong c)(ance of getting me culled if I )(addock lived to maturirty.
▲: You can't pretend t)(at we bot)( aren't in dang)(er because of our blood.
▼: I DON'T HAVE TO PRETEND. YOU'RE DEAD AND NO ONE WHO CARES IS ALIVE, SO WE'RE FINE. BUT WE WERE, I GUESS.
▼: SO HOW DO I GO ABOUT MAKING YOU LESS LONELY?
▲: W)(ale, you suggested somet)(ing earlier.
▼: THAT I DID.
▼: I SUPPOSE THIS IS JUST A LITTLE AWKWARD BECAUSE WE NEVER REALLY HAD ANYTHING WHEN YOU WERE ALIVE, AND THIS IS ONLY MY SECOND, AND I'M RAMBLING NOW.
▲: You can be my first for as muc)( as you'd pike to be.
▼: ONLY YOUR....
▼: FUCK.
▼: SORRY, FEFERI.
▲: Do you t)(ink if I )(addock experienced t)(ings w)(en I was alive I would be angling you w)(en I'm dead?
▼: PROBABLY NOT.
▼: LISTEN, I DOUBT IT MATTERS NOW, OR MAKES THE FACT YOUR DEAD ANY EASIER, AND IT SURE AS HELL DOESN'T MAKE ME FEEL LESS GUILTY, BUT-
▼: *kisses her*
▲: *flushes, and clutches onto him excited*
▼: *pulls away* SORRY. THAT'S ALL I CAN DO.
▲: Vacant )(eiress rig)(t )(ere waiting for you all flus)(ed up, )(ow muc)( more do I )(ave to make it obvious?
▼: SORRY, FEFERI. BUT I'M STILL ALIVE. THIS IS ONLY A DREAM PROJECTION.
▲: But it is reel for me.
▼: EVEN IF WE WANTED TO, WE CAN'T.
▼: I'M SORRY.
▲: And its t)(e only reel I get..
▲: *looks sadly at him, her cheeks and gills flushed royal pink*
▼: DOES IT HELP? AT ALL?
▲: You said you wanted to kelp me.
▼: YEAH. I DID. *looks away, face red* BUT THERE'S ONLY SO MUCH I CAN DO TOWARDS THAT END.
▲: You cod kelp me. *grabs his arm and pulls him to look at her*
▼: *looks down* FEFERI, I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE I COULD DO.
▲: *pulls the sleeves down her shoulders* Per)(aps?
▼: *pulls her sleeves back up* FEFERI, DON'T MAKE THIS HARDER ON YOURSELF. *kisses her cheek* I CAN'T. YOU KNOW THAT. GET OUT OF THE BUBBLES. FIND OUR FRIENDS. REMEMBER WHY THIS ISN'T SOMETHING YOU WOULD WANT.
▲: Karkat, please? I )(ave been secretly flus)(ed for you...
▼: NO YOU HAVEN'T. YOUR JUST LONELY. I HATE TO REPEAT YOUR OWN WORDS BACK AT YOU, BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE YOUR SECOND CHOICE.
▲: You never )(addock time for conversations t)(at I wanted to )(ave wit)( you. *clings onto him*
▼: *pulls away* FEFERI, I HAD PLENTY OF TIME. IT JUST WASN'T ME YOU WANTED TO SPEND IT WITH. DON'T TRY TO CONVINCE ME IT WAS. IT'S INSULTING TO SOLLUX.
▲: I admired you, and your ability to lead people. I knew t)(at we would be perc)(-fect wit)( eac)( otter... *pulls him hard, more that she should have been capable of from her image, making him stumble into her* I am knot a very good leader, but I )(ave t)(e blood for it.. Imagine w)(at we cod )(ave )(addock toget)(er, Glub
▲: *onto
▲: (Actually, onto, into, they both work. Into just sounds kinkier.)
▲: (uh. He walked into her because she pulled him backwards, is what I meant to say with that. It just sounds weird with into/onto)
▼: (Okay.)
▼: *pulls her hands off him, moves back out of her reach, looks away* FUCKING GOD DAMN IT, FEFERI! I WAS A SHIT LEADER THAT GOT HALF OF US KILLED! THAT'S THE WHOLE REASON YOU'RE HERE, BECAUSE YOU'RE DEAD! I'M NOT! I'M DREAMING, AND I COULD WAKE UP AT ANY MINUTE!
▼: FEFERI, YOU WERE MY FRIEND! DON'T MAKE THIS HARDER ON ME BY SAYING THINGS THAT WE BOTH KNOW ARE ONLY MEANT TO KEEP ME HERE SO YOU WON'T HAVE TO BE LONELY!
▲: *she flinches from his tone, breathing heavily and blinking tears back* I know I'll be alone again, just kelp me before you leave?
▼: *tears fill his eyes* I CAN'T, THAT'S THE POINT! I CAN TALK, I CAN EVEN TOUCH YOU TO SOME DEGREE, BUT WHAT YOU WANT IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME! FOR FUCK'S SAKE, JUST FIND SOMEONE, ANYONE! IT DOESN'T MATTER IF THEY WERE A FRIEND OR NOT, HELL EVEN THAT SHITHEAD ERIDAN WILL DO! JUST LISTEN TO ME, FEFERI. YOU FIND THEM, AND YOU HELP THEM, AND MAYBE- JUST MAYBE- YOU'LL FIND THAT YOU ARE SIGNIFICANTLY LESS LONELY. GOD KNOWS I AM!
▼: I AM...
▼: HEH.
▼: I GUESS SEEING YOU GUYS DOES HELP.
▲: I've never been ss)(ellfis)(, W)(y can't I be ss)(ellfis)( just once and get w)(at I want?
▼: *moves closer, hugs her* BECAUSE THAT'S NOT WHO YOU ARE. AND I'LL BE DAMNED IF I LET YOU FORGET THAT.
▲: *she presses against him, her vest-top sliding down over her, showing more of her torso* Just once, wit)( you. W)(y is it so impossible?
▼: *tilts her head up, kisses her forehead* BECAUSE I WON'T INSULT YOU LIKE THAT. I WAS NEVER THE ONE YOU WANTED TO DO THAT WITH WHEN YOU WERE ALIVE. I WON'T NOW JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE DEAD.
▲: *she kisses him clumsily, wrapping her arms around his neck to hold him* Just once, wit)( you. W)(y is it so impossible? I am knot w)(o I was before I died.
▼: *takes her hands in his, moves them back to her sides gently, grins* WELL, I'M NOT WHO I WAS WHEN YOU WERE ALIVE. SO I CAN TELL YOU WHAT IT REALLY LOOKS LIKE WHEN SOMEONE CHANGES. AND YOU HAVEN'T. YOU'RE JUST SAD. AND LONELY. AND CONFUSED. THAT'S WHY I'M HERE RIGHT NOW, I THINK. TO REMIND YOU OF THAT. *the tips of his horns start to blur* LOOKS LIKE I'M RIGHT.
▲: No, please, stay, please? *she grasps onto him desperately*
▼: *holds her hands in his own, kisses her on the cheek* I CAN'T. I THINK YOU SHOULD FIND SOMEONE WHO CAN. I KNOW YOU WILL. YOU HAVE A WAY OF MEETING PEOPLE.
▲: Please, I want you to be first matesprit. *tears roll down her cheeks, her gills rapidly fluxing with her breathing* Sufferer.
▼: HEH. SORRY. I SEEM TO BE SAYING THAT A LOT, DON'T I? I ALSO SEEM TO BE CALLING YOU A LIAR A LOT. HOW ABOUT YOUR NEXT SENTENCE MAKES IT ONE LESS TIME I HAVE TO CALL YOU THAT? *wipes her tears away, hugs her* DON'T CRY, CONDESCE. YOUR SUBJECTS NEED YOU TO BE STRONG.
▲: *she stumbles back, and then falls on her knees in front of him* Fix it, please? God, make it better... *she presses her hand to her middle, as if feeling pain that had long since gone into the numbness of death*
▼: *kneels down next to her, puts his arms around her* I CAN'T. ONLY YOU CAN DO THAT. BUT YOU NEED TO BE WILLING TO MOVE ON.
▲: *she looks up at him, her eyes empty of everything but pain* Make me whole again, sufferer
▼: *kisses her, places his hand to her stomach, looks at it* YOU ARE DISTRESSING HER ROYAL CONDESCENSION. STOP.
▲: *she leans into him, pressing her lips to his passionately, the taste of her tears between their lips*
▼: *let's it continue for several seconds before stopping; wipes her tears away and helps her to her feet* ALMOST TIME FOR ME TO GO. ANYTHING YOU WANT ME TO TELL THE REST OF THE PEOPLE DOWN THERE?
▲: I told you everyt)(ing I needed to be said, I want you to make me w)(ole. *she steps backwards away from him, her eyes closed*
▼: *gently* I CAN'T, FEFERI. YOU'LL ONLY BE WHOLE IF AND WHEN YOU'RE READY TO BE.
▲: *she opens her eyes again, looking lost* I fis)( I )(addock said t)(is w)(en we were bot)( alive.
▼: YEAH. I WISH YOU WERE STILL ALIVE, TOO.
▼: AND FEFERI?
▲: *looks at him, a small light ofhope in her eyes*
▼: DON'T LOSE YOURSELF OUT HERE. I'D HATE TO SEE YOU BECOME SOMETHING YOU'RE NOT.
▲: *she nods, smiling to him* I manta w)(at I said t)(oug)(, please believe me.
▼: I LOVED YOU TOO, FEFERI. WE ALL DI-
▼: (That would be him waking up.)
▲: *her smile and the light in her eyes fills his vision in the passage between dreaming and waking*
Me as Feferi, and Darklordvan as Karkat