#cherry b)rambles

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I love verbally abusing my cat in front of my friends. He is like insanely clingy & annoying and he'll clamber on my lap even though I didn't want him to and he starts purring just by looking at me he loves me so much and I will tell my friends that I hate him (cause I do) and I'm gonna turn him into a rug one day (cause I wlll) and that he is the most annoying horrible creature in the world (he is) and there is not and never will be a single positive thought in my head about him (cause there won't) and they'll scream and cry and we'll start shouting matches (in good fun) over why I should like him (I always win cause I will never like him) and the fact that when I find a place to live on my own I'll be taking him and maybe his brother with me is completely besides the point because there will never be a bone in my body that isn't exasperated and hateful towards that vocal stupid cat

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highly considering just voicing Mr. Incarnate and forcing the audience to listen to him go through mist puberty. The trans man headcanons will be unavoidable but I only hope to anything above that my sway on the audience will be good enough that he'll be widely characterized as post-op, if only because that's a very underappreciated HC

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it's really fun to truly see how much I have changed in my writing. Rewriting a fanfic I started in 2018 and never posted, and I've turned this 2k barebones chapter into 6k of prose, details, and emotions, and I'm nowhere done. This is so fun : )

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Songs I want to do drag in (voicover OR singalong)

Trust - Rebecca Black

Gethsemane - Jesus Christ Superstar

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Someone's got to have made a rig joint monster for a horror game or show but I can only imagine the inherent horror the creator must have or will experience(d) to attempt rigging a rig

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I've been on depop for like a week now and have already developed a massive addiction and Every Time I'm on it I have to slap myself in the face and go "listen here bucko you have clothes!! you wanna make something cute GO SEW IT!! Take that dress you like the pattern of but don't really like the fit and FUCK IT UP!! Oh you want a cute bodysuit to rave in? But everything is either 80 bucks or 50 on depop (but 80 with shipping or smth) then GO FUCK UP SOME CLOTHES!!! STOP BEING A SUCK A STUPID BAKA CONSUMER!!!!!"

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opened up my mouth to speak and coughed like air went down the wrong tube, despite it going down my esophagus, which is usually the right tube for that kinda stuff

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the urge to create is all-consuming and all-encompassing right now.

Like grrrrr I want to make an RPGmaker horror game about a girl who smokes weed.

I want to write the third chapter of a fanfiction that's been 3 years in the making.

I want to finish editing a YouTube video that's been in the works since I was 17.

I want to make little crafts at the library and learn embroidery and needle felting and crochet.

I want to refine and publish my show bible.

I want to learn HTML to make a neocities website.

I want to learn python to make a visual novel.

I want to learn blender so I can make more 3D models.

I want to learn python AND mel AND maybe blender so I can rig those 3D models.

I want to animate those 3D models talking to each other.

I want to animate 2D characters talking to each other.

I want to make stopmotion videos of my calico critters talking to each other recorded on my old 3DS.

I want to write an Ace Attorney custom level.

I want to learn how to green screen and set up proper lighting so I can make bad home movies for media I like.

I want to study reaper and audacity so I can make instrumental music.

I want to record the audio for my already existing lyrics so that if I die it's not lost to the world.

I want to do everything so that if I die it's not lost to the world.

I want to do everything so that if I die it's not lost to the world.

I would rather die then generate.

I would rather die then ask an AI to make it for me.

I want to do it all badly and have it mean something than to have a computer make a mediocre attempt and gain nothing.

Being a jack of all trades is overwhelming sometimes. I would hate to be anything else, though.