#cherryt

[freshthoughts2020]

[cherryzarde]

been thinking about how every oc I've made in my adulthood has been explicitly nonbinary like on my dnd chara sheet it just says "wouldn't you like to know, weatherboy" and yet most of the time i can't help but feel like I'm not nonbinary enough to say I'm nonbinary

[hi-technique]

大寒桜と目白 by myu-myu on Flickr

[cherryzarde]

also.

yes i know i need therapy at this point yes i am fucking terrified of seeking it out while under my parents roof. i see the way my parents treat my brother ever since he got diagnosed with Problems Disorder and i think. id rather maintain the perfect honor student illusion a tad longer lol

[cherryzarde]

i know the solution 2 a lot of the things im feeling is to have a super honest convo with my friends about my insecurities so maybe they can tell me im not Just A Fucking Nusiance and i can sleep in peace but my shit idiot brain wont let me and if it did itd tell me theyre lying anyway :| :| :|