Feeling reflective: I had a talk about forgiveness, bitterness, love, understanding, expression, and aggression over a slow game of chess where during defeat I found this distress I've fought to repress. I am not perfect, nor should I ever pretend to be. I will not wear a mask and smile if I do not truly feel it. I will live unabatedly and share my feelings, or I will leave. I will do all this and internally hold a smile. For in this transparency I will no longer lie, and I will no longer hide. It takes courage to be yourself, and I've always appreciated those who are legitimate the most. I may not always like or agree with them, but I cannot help loving them. I should probably spend more time with my family. I could apologize to a person or two. Please stop talking about it and go do.