8/24/2025 Updates:
My brain not feeling underwater anymore is fucking awesome. I feel so good. I can't believe how much easier it is to understand every fucking language I've studied before. I can't believe how underwater I felt before.
Tested my French: Inner French episode I left off of last time (episode 7 on conspiray theories) was at least as comprehensible now this time. Although I felt it now takes less mental effort to pay attention and follow what's going on.
Tested my Spanish (obviously as it's most of what I've enjoyed this past week): absolutely notice it's easier now than before. I can now repeat after almost every word, figure out or already know and recall the meaning of almost every word, of Spanish Boost Gaming and Spanish Boost podcast videos. Yesterday I tried to watch a How to Spanish podcast video, because I know I could not understand that series when I started studying Spanish, and lo and behold I CAN understand at least 1 episode of How to Spanish now! The speed was a little faster than Martin from Spanish Boost, and there were definitely more unknown words. But the words still felt quite easy to parse, to figure out the unknown words from context, to quickly recognize and understand the words I know. And since I studied Spanish directly before the hospital, watched a little Spanish Boost Gaming in the hospital (because it was familiar and emotionally comforting), directly after the hospital, and now every day since getting out of the hospital, it is extremely clear to me how much my memory and recall/recognition speed are getting daily. How much my ability to figure out new words from context improves daily. It truly felt like I was underwater holding my breath feeling exhausted, trying to hear and understand stuff before. And now I am above water in the air where everything is clear sounding and I can breathe easy and am wide awake and alert.
Tested my Chinese: a few days ago with Guardian cdrama and Dashu Mandarin, recall and recognition speed was slower then. Tested my Chinese again yesterday, was better than it had ever been before. Dashu Mandarin was finally clear and easy feeling and understandable. I realized Xiaogua Chinese Upper Intermediate felt easy to me yesterday, I barely heard any new words except policy 政策 and 农村, which I could easily and quickly guess the meanings from context.
Testing my Japanese now: listening to Nihongo Con Teppei beginning episodes I have heard before multiple times, as I know for sure I understood these before the hospital. Like everything else language related, it is so much EASIER to follow what is being said - I don't need to put in as much effort, I can type or multitask while listening and still follow what's being said, I could translate these sentences if required (which is a skill I was finding too hard pre-surgery pre-hospital visit). With how much easier Japanese feels, I am wondering if I'll still feel like an upper beginner, or if I will feel like intermediate stuff is doable more now. Like I find this Yakuza Lets Play easier to follow now (although I could follow the main idea gist months ago - it just felt like way more effort to focus, to figure out word meaning from context clues, the speed of understanding felt so delayed compared to now).
I wonder how much of all this stuff I've studied, my brain was actually storing into memory, and it's just the bleeding made my memory and focus absolute shit so it felt really hard to grasp more than the overall main idea and felt like I was on a delay. Like those old school dial up internet speed, versus now on high speed internet (as in how my recall feels now). Again, it was like I was underwater hearing someone speaking to me, had run out of air, and was exhausted. Now I feel like I'm on land, breathing air and hearing with no barriers between me and the source of sound, and I've had a good night's sleep and I'm wide awake. Also... that hematoma in my brain was not just fucking up my memory, it was worsening my hearing, because my hearing simply IS better now.
Lmao so much for me testing how ALG or Comprehensible Input Lessons work for someone. My brain was so nerfed before, I think any progress I made was slower than it would normally have been for others. Also it is surprising I was able to learn at all tbh. Based on how I felt before and afte4 my surgery, I clearly did learn a LOT while my brain was nerfed, I just was having trouble recalling and recognizing those things I learned.









