having a really difficult and painful time because one of our trauma holders had/has lots of memories resurfacing plus he’s so extremely dysphoric that being confronted with how the body looks/looked like during his trauma was like the worst aspect of it? or the one he’s stuck on most at least. Like “yeah the trauma was horrible but wth is this “girl” body I’m stuck in????” totally desorienting too and i think he can’t really cope with being in a system either.
idk it’s really hard to deal because he keeps framing it as “and then suddenly I was in someone elses body and I have no idea how the perpetrators did that!!!” and I get that that’s what it was like for him, but we DO now have an explanation! It was just our normal everyday outer body and you’re a system mate and you just hadn’t fronted before and had only experienced your inner body before that point. And yes i understand how traumatic that was. but understanding these facts that you didn’t know then but can have access to now will help you deal with it.
