#chrons colitis

[sleepy-eclectic-dreaming-witch]

I'm so fucking pissed at myself that I want to cry, throw up, or punch my legs. Or all three. I'm so sick of this shit

[crohnsjess]

When you're down and out..

I 100% know that feeling of mega rubbish, I can't move, I'm so high on meds, I hurt, everybody hates me, no one gets it ect, ect..

I often feel like this guy..

I get it, I really do. But if there's one thing I've learnt throughout all of this crohns/ various other ailments disease it's that living like theres no hope leaves you sad, depressed, alone and in the long run, worse off.

Now I'm not saying when you're crippled in pain pretend like its not happening and hope for the best, really, do NOT do that. If you're worried/ scared/ know something is most definitely wrong get on the phone to your doctor/consultant or head to A&E. The longer you leave it, the worse it gets.

Its when your at that stage where the worst is over, its still bad, but you're more able to physically do things, here is the crucial moment where you can decided to get sad about things and stay in bed without any drive to do anything, or you can push and fight for it. Now its not as hard as going all Rocky Balboa about it..

.. for me it was more of a mental thing than a physical thing. For example, i used to moan and moan and moan, and I know I had the right to, but the more i moaned the worse I emotionally felt about it all. I would talk so negatively about my whole ordeals that  I kept replaying the bad times and reliving them.I wasn't able to accept the facts and move on.

It took me a long time to get out of that habit, but now whenever i speak of my troubles, i always get the same reaction from people:

"How are you so okay about this! Why are you so positive, I can't believe you're so brave and accepting"

I never undermine the disease, if i speak about it, i don't lie or dumb down my symptoms, especially to the doctors, but now i've accepted it, I speak freely and with ease about everything. 

Inspire people with your story, don't scare them.

Make people understand, not underestimate. 

Once you accept it, everyone in your life will to.