#cindy rambles

[madwoman14]

i love you. on purpose.

[fallen-gravity]

actually now that I finished the game and am no longer at risk of end-game spoiling myself, it's actually so funny that I just finished my first playthrough of in stars and time and somehow managed to avoid triggering the bad touch event even though I was actively trying to trigger a confession from isabeau

it's so funny that, in the end conversation where you do end up triggering the bad touch event, siffrin and isabeau flirt with each other about just needing to practice, and it's so funny to me and nobody else, because I had an isafrin dream back when I hadn't even gotten halfway through act 4 yet.

I'd known about bad touch, because the isafrin brainrot kicked in EARLY, but because I didn't want to spoil myself on anything past where I'd been gameplay wise, I didn't even know how to trigger it, or what the full details of bad touch even were.

regardless. i knew about bad touch, and my brain decided to cook with what little info I had.

I had a dream that, post-loops, post-confession, Siffrin and Isabeau were talking. They were together as a couple at that point, but old habits die hard, and Isabeau still hesitated to touch Siffrin, because he didn't want to make them flinch or accidentally hurt them or any number of oh-my-god-you're-the-sweetest-boyfriend-ever-just-shut-up-and-touch-me reasons. But before Siffrin could say anything, Isabeau makes an offer.

"How about I just...describe how I want to touch you? As like, practice! You know, that way it won't be a huge surprise?"

and then Siffrin is too flustered to disagree, and Isabeau doesn't quite realize what he just said, so he starts describing all of these soft and tender things, and you know, haha, maybe something more than that! but haha, that's okay, I don't know why I said that part out loud, haha, you can ignore that, and goes back to the soft and tender stuff

and then he stops. because Siffrin is whimpering his name. Isabeau thinks surely Siffrin must be begging him to stop, he went too far, but he looks at Siffrin again and oh. oh. massive blush on his face. can't even look Isabeau in the eyes.

Isa drops the act. He finally steps forward, and asks permission.

Can I touch you?

Siffrin inhales sharply, like they question makes them want to cry, but he says yes.

It's just a gentle gesture, of reaching out and wiping away tears from his eye that's not even quite there yet.

It's insane!! My sleeping brain world wrote a post-canon fix-it for something I didn't even encounter myself!! My sleeping brain accidentally picked and chose from the canon post-game dialouge about said event!!!

The brainrot is too real. I've been too far gone far longer than I'm willing to admit.

[madwoman14]

left my marvel era behind but i would do anything to experience endgame coming out again. everyone seemed so excited and thrilled i miss it

[madwoman14]

the one that got away.

[madwoman14]

come back home.

larry bracegirdle/place we were made, maisie peters/ ms moem/this love: taylor swift/clementine von radics/ everything has changed: taylor swift/ wild spirit soft heart/ @usermaha /25 21/castle on the hill: ed sheeran/ rea kolarova

[madwoman14]

nothing just thinking about how a ponniyan selvan movie was not just mani ratnam’s dream but also the dream of so many that came before him and how kollywood has finally put the story on screen after 70 years…

[madwoman14]

lane kim world tour (featuring dave rygalski)

[madwoman14]

i used to be so annoyed about how my indian parents drew out goodbyes. we’d stand out on the porch talking for hours after leaving the couch and i wasn’t allowed to go back in the house until we saw the car turning out of the neighborhood. but know that i’ve gotten older, i think i finally see why. i don’t know when i’ll see some of my friends again, so maybe i’ll wait for one more story and one more goodbye, even if my feet are freezing and my arm hurts from waving.