#ciyh!blue

[color-in-your-hands]

Blue/Noah “I don’t want to be friends with benefits, but I do want something more, I just can’t figure out what.”

Anon, you’re calling me out by requesting this pairing for this meme, just so you know.  Also, for your listening consideration, I recommend this song to give you an idea of the kind of weekend Blue and Noah are having here.

“I’m drunk.”“Are you?”“I only get silly like this when I’m drunk.”“I jump on tables when I’m drunk.”Blue gasps.  “No!”Noah nods gravely.  The effect is only slightly diminished by the fact that he’s upside down on the couch beside her.  “I polished off a bottle of my mom’s fancy schnapps right before my cousin Gayle’s bat mitzvah and jumped on one of the tables to tell her how boring I thought her party was, but I don’t remember anything between thinking ‘that folding table can definitely hold my weight!’ and waking up in the ER.”She has to put her chopsticks down to avoid choking on her food as he regales her with another story, also involving underage drinking and climbing on tables, that ended in being uninvited to Gayle’s sweet sixteen while the party was in progress.  “So really it made perfect sense she didn’t invite me to her wedding, either.”Blue wails and buries her face in her arms, her mostly empty glass carefully taken from her and moved before she knocks it over.When Noah told her he’d have Monmouth to himself this weekend, Blue made a convincing excuse to switch shifts with Cialina to make herself available.  Between his teaching schedule and her classes and job, they don’t get many chances to be alone, and so far they’ve spent eighteen hours making each other laugh until they cry, making out, getting pleasantly stoned, and eating takeout from every place in town they can get delivery from.It’s perfect and easy and they’re pointedly not dwelling on the fact that, at any moment, the illusion could be shattered if Ronan gets sick of Declan and comes home before Sunday.“I don’t want to just be friends with benefits,” Noah says, unprompted, after several minutes where they’re both content to eat in silence.  It takes a moment for Blue’s understanding to catch up with her ears, and when it does she looks up from her pan see awe.  “I do want something more, though, I just can’t figure out what.”  Noah looks at her, then pointedly at the carton in her hands.  “You’re gonna drop that shrimp.”Blue watches it tumble out of the perfectly constructed bite she’d managed to put together, and stabs the chopsticks into the noodles in annoyance.  She sets it on the coffee table and turns to him, tilting her head to try and look at him right-side up.  “See, you can’t just go around saying things like that without warning,” she scolds, without any real heat.  “They deserve my full attention.”“We’d be here all night,” Noah says.  He gestures between them with his fork.  “What with the profound deficit of attention between us.”“We’d manage.”  She picks a piece of pineapple off the top of the container of rice resting on his stomach and rests her cheek on her knee.He laugh-groans and turns towards the ceiling, away from her, and scrunches his eyes closed.  “You’re being all cute and it’s fucking me up,” he whines.  Noah frowns in an overly committed way that makes Blue grin and mumbles to himself, “This is serious.  I’m being serious.  Serious business.”  He peeks one eye open and looks at her, then turns away from her completely with a laughing groan.  “Stop!  How do you do that?”Blue bites her lip to stifle her giggles and nudges him with her elbow.  “I’m not doing anything!” “You’re making that face with your face when I’m trying to be serious.  It’s making my brain useless.” Blue reaches for his face and turns him back to her.  “You’re right,” she says.  “This is serious.  It’s so serious, Noah, oh my god.”“It’s so super cereal right now,” he says, eyes bright and charmed his own joke.She laughs.  “Yes, it’s that.  So super cereal.  Pull your shit together, Czerny.”  She puts her palms on his cheeks and leans in close.   She tries to keep her expression playfully serious, but it’s hard when she knows she’s about to completely set him off.  “The fate of huge manatees rides on this.”  He laughs so hard at her suddenly grim tone it makes him choke, and she takes his fried rice from him when he tries to sit up.  As he rights himself, she climbs up onto the couch and for several minutes they keep falling into the trap of sobering up, making eye contact, and being set off into another fit of laughter.   “I’ve just been wondering what it is we’re doing,” Noah says, when they finally manage to stop.  “I know I like you a whole lot.”Blue’s insides go mushy.  “I like you a whole lot, too.”  Noah smiles, even though he’s clearly trying not to.  “I’m a grown-ass man, I shouldn’t get all twisted up over a girl like this anymore.  I’m regressing and it’s all your fault.”  “Pshaw.”  She puts her hands on his cheeks again, pushing them together to give him a fish face.  “Getting lowkey turnt and stupid is what we’re doing right now, and maybe tomorrow we’ll go out.  I dunno.  It depends on how the rest of tonight goes.”“It’s going pretty great,” Noah says.  Blue smiles.   “Yeah, it is.”

[color-in-your-hands]

The Colors You Have has updated.

“You’re so cold,” Blue says. She takes his hands and holds his fingertips between her palms, blowing warm air against them.

“That’s the warmest they’ll get.” Noah sighs, put upon. He can see his breath in the air. “Bad circulation.”

She has snowflakes in her hair and on her eyelashes and he wishes he could take a picture of her. “Is that from being dead or just because your body doesn’t body right?”

“Both? Neither? I don’t know.”

She laughs, then he laughs, and she releases his hands. He feels bereft.

Read it on AO3.

[color-in-your-hands]

A very kind anon asked me to do one of those friends or more prompts for Blue/Noah and I want that anon to know that I’m listening to this song on repeat while I work on it because I’m feeling these vibes so much and I needed to share before I’m ready to post it.

[color-in-your-hands]

Wait also we (i) need blue (and im emotional over gansey i love him so much)

Ah, Blue.  What a fun character she is, honestly.01. Name: Blue Sargent02. Nickname(s): Jane (Gansey), Maggot (Ronan), whatever variant on her name Henry can come up with at the moment, and whatever Polish/Yiddish/Hebrew variant or term of endearment Noah can come up with at the moment.03. Gender: Cis female04. Sexuality: Polyamorous heterosexual05. Best Friend: Cialina Cruz06. Relationship Status: In relationships07: Crush/Significant Other: Noah and Gansey08. Least Favourite Person: “Why bother wasting the energy on even thinking about such a person?”09. Favourite Food: Vanilla Greek yogurt with honey10. Favourite Place: Storm King Art Center11. Valued Attributes: Her passion, her curiosity, her creativity, her individuality and self-confidence, and her capacity for love.12. Dreams: To visit every country on earth at least once, and to find her biological father.13. Nightmares: She has a recurring dream about turning into a tree that, upon reflection, is more of an And I Must Scream existential body horror nightmare than, like, a nice dream.14. A Secret: She actually does want to find a place to settle down and return home to amidst all her travels.15. Best Day: The time she, Noah, and Gansey went to New York City and spent day that turned into an impromptu weekend exploring museums and visiting landmarks and sharing one king-sized bed in a small hotel room.16. Worst Day: Thankfully hasn’t happened yet.17. Favourite Outfit: Changes all the time, whenever she makes something new or buys a new piece that really inspires her.  18. Weapon of Choice: Dual-wield melee/small, compact ranged weapons 19. Role in RPG: Rogue (or a similar fragile speedster or hit-and-run class), for DPS-dealing and enemy aggro-control20. First Thought in the Morning: “Who do I have to fight for first shower rights?”

[color-in-your-hands]

What makes ur noah and blue's relationship different from ur blue and gansey, or b/n/g? I'm really interested! U tag them a lot together and I'd like to know more about them in this 'verse!

Hi nonnie!The biggest difference is that I ship Blue/Noah harder than I ship her with Gansey, so in CiYH I ship the three of them together because, for Plot reasons I can’t disclose, it’s more practical that way.   Blue isn’t poly, per se, but her relationship with Noah is open to include Gansey, so technically she’s dating both of them simultaneously.  She’s been with Noah slightly longer (about three months longer, as of the first chapter of CiYH) and her relationship with him is different in character than the one she has with Gansey.  In a way, one could consider Noah to be her primary partner, but she treats Gansey’s relationship with her with the same level of priority as she does Noah’s.  You know how, sometimes, you have those people in a friend group who are instantly a pair?  Not a couple, but, there’s an undeniable connection between them from the very start?  That’s Blue and Noah.  He had a thing for her that he thought would never amount to anything since she was, after all, introduced to him as Adam’s Girlfriend Blue, and she felt she could confide in him more freely than she could with most people.  They were very quickly very close.  When things started to sour with Adam and Blue reached out to Noah for comfort, neither of them intended for things to go the way they did.  They tried very hard to not let it happen again until she ended things with Adam and it proved nearly impossible right until the break-up finally happened--they just have that sort of chemistry, despite the two biggest factors acting against them: their age difference and their mutual culture clash.  Gansey and Blue have a similar chemistry, but it took much longer for it to become apparent to both of them.  For Blue, it was physical attraction at first, and for Gansey it was intellectual/emotional--they have very different needs and priorities with relationships, which is why it took them a bit to realize they had mutual attraction to each other.  Given how much time she was spending at Monmouth with Noah after she broke up with Adam, things with Gansey also escalated--not to the same extent, but to the point where Noah called Blue on it and told her to go for it, no strings attached on his part.  Gansey’s more emotionally needy than Noah and Blue likes that about him, and Gansey’s physicality is also very different though complimentary to Noah’s.  Basically, she gets different relationship needs sated by both of them because neither of them have everything she needs, and they’re happy to share so long as she’s happy.The three of them kind of fell together, with varying degrees of intimacy with each other, with Blue as the common denominator to help the guys bond both with and without her presence.  They have a weekly threesome bath time (which isn’t as sexy as it sounds, it’s cute and awkward and relaxing), joint dates, and have celebrated holidays together--Blue and Gansey go to Noah’s family’s Passover Seder in April 2017 for the first time, and it is awkward and outrageously fun for everyone involved.I really love them.  When I get around to re-writing the earlier chapters of CiYH, I want to highlight them (and Gansey’s super secret Thing with Henry!) more.  The lack of angst from these three is very refreshing compared to the critical amount Adam and Ronan produce simply by occupying the same room.

[color-in-your-hands]

1,3,5,7,9 for blue/Noah/gansey- lov beekeeper

1. Who is the early bird/ Who is the night owl?

Noah is neither.  He wakes up at the same time every day, no matter when he went to bed, and tends to get tired around the same time every night.Gansey, by default, is the night owl because of his insomnia.  It’s better that it used to be, but he still has trouble falling and staying asleep all night.  Blue’s the early bird, who’s up and at ‘em and already productive before either of her boys have even considered getting out of bed.  That comes from growing up in such a crowded house where all morning resources had to be competed over daily and the late risers suffered greatly.

3. Who hogs the cover/ Who loves to cuddle?

Gansey is hardly ever asleep with Noah and Blue at the same time, so he’s out for this one.Blue and Noah are the cuddliest.  A human pretzel, who shares the blankets crookedly across them so Blue’s head can be under the covers and half of Noah is uncovered, as they both prefer.  

5. Who usually has nightmares?

Blue hardly ever has them, and the ones she does have pale in comparison to the ones her boyfriends have.Gansey has ones about being stung to death pretty frequently, and ones about generally upsetting things like bad things happening to the people he loves.  His anxiety makes him incredibly prone to these kinds of nearly-real feeling dreams about the aftermath of someone’s death that leave him rattled and in tears when he wakes up, and he always needs to call the person he dreamt had died to make sure they’re okay.Noah has bad ones, from time to time.  Horrible ones that border on night terrors that have him kicking and screaming and re-living his literal brush with death.  Ones that make him jolt awake and panic over whether or not his face was put back together properly after said near-death experience.  Ones that leave him in existential anguish for days afterwards because he’s not completely sure he’s actually alive and that everything that happened after “the accident” is just a dying dream or some kind of afterlife.

7. Who sweats the small stuff?

Not Noah.  Noah’s chill.  Noah has better things to do than sweat the small stuff.  

Blue’s got a short fuse, the shortest of the three, and will get very annoyed or bothered by little things.  Gansey is autistic, has an anxiety disorder, and OCD tendencies.  He’ll sweat pretty much anything that, for lack of a better term, rubs him even slightly wrong at any given moment.  

9. Who makes the coffee (or tea)? 

They all make coffee, and they all do it about as well as each other because they all know exactly how to make it just right for each other (and Ronan, lbr, since he lives with Gansey and Noah).  Blue always makes Gansey’s tea, though.  It’s just a thing that’s done, even though all it entails is plugging in the electric kettle Noah’s mom gave him years ago that he never uses for himself.  

[color-in-your-hands]

If you're still open to the 50 OTP things..23 for Blue and Noah (with Gansey, why not) :)

23. Who asks who out on the first date?Aaah!  My first ask about my other real OTP(+1)!!  I’m so happy I could cry.But!  Yes!! Answering the question: technically, it would be Noah who asked Blue.  Or rather, he told her he’d ask her out, she said she would say okay, and then a few weeks later she ended up asking him if he wanted to go to a BLM benefit show at the one real nightclub in town.  He said yes, as you do to girls you like to kiss all over.(In regards to +Gansey, for context:  Noah knew Blue liked him, and she felt bad about it until he was like, “No, it’s cool, seriously, you can see him too and I won’t get jealous or anything.”  So she did.  And, because she was suddenly spending so much time at Monmouth between the two of them, they all just sort of fell together.)Their first date, though?  As a threesome?  Blue’s doing, yet again.  She asked them to go to the Met in NYC with her, make a whole day of it.  They, of course, said yes.  There was cuddling on the train and breakfast at a cute cafe in Midtown and hours in the museum followed by a staggering amount of food from a street vendor that was consumed walking around Central Park.  They hit up the Strand kiosk on Fifth Avenue, and then watched skaters at Rockefeller Center before they went back to Grand Central to buy more food and wait for their train home.  It was a singularly wonderful day, despite the ridiculously cold weather and the snow.  

[color-in-your-hands]

What does it say when after re-watching The Last Five Years I was whammy’d by feels about Blue and Adam?   And now I want to document the whole almost-two-years they were together in CiYH?