#clairerainbow

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I had gotten old. My bones felt weak, my body was at an end. I knew that I was dying, yet felt afraid. What would the afterlife be like? How could I do anything without Yutaka by my side? My one true love sensed my fears and although he must have been just as afraid as I was, he hold me close. His arms felt soothing around me. He whispered in my ear all the reasons why he had fallen in love with me, while I closed my eyes and slowly fell in a long, long sleep.

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After Twan passed away we renovated the garage once again for Damian to live in. That way he could save up money for his own place. That meant that his old room was available. I gave it to Yuumi, since she was always hard working and getting her grades up. Luna wasn’t too happy about it though. One night I stood outside with Yutaka to admire everything I had accomplished in my life. I had worked hard to be able to live in this huge house, with an amazing husband and three children, whom I may never wanted but still loved in my own way. I was happy, maybe even content, for the first time in my life.

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It didn’t matter that I was willing to buy Luna expensive clothes, she refused to wear them. Her idea of high fashion was to look like a broke street artist. I hated to say it but she embaressed me. It didn’t help that she distanced herself from our family as well. Yutaka had spent hours in the kitchen and had decorated our entire house to make the holidays fabulous, but Luna just sat apart. Yutaka said it was just a phase, but she ruined christmas for me. Yutaka was always nice, way nicer than I was, so when he got up to Twan’s place to give him some of our christmas left overs, he found Twan on the floor. He passed away. I wasn’t sad about it. I had never really loved him, but it did made my day even worse.

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Damian grew up to be a young man. We discussed him going to college and was disappointed to find out that he had no interest in such thing. I couldn’t convince him to get a higher education, but once he told me about his plans to join the army I couldn’t say no. It was a very respectable career choice, one where he would surely benefit from starting at the bottom and working his way up.  Yuumi as a child really showed her intelligence. I was convinced that she would one day become a lawyer or a doctor! But Luna... she hadn’t accomplished a thing. Yutaka said I shouldn’t be so hard on her, but I couldn’t help myself. She seemed to envy her brother and sister, but didn’t put in any work to be more like them.

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Damian was also really fond of Yuumi. Whenever he wasn’t doing sports, snowboarding or doing homework, he would play with her. Lunas grades weren’t any better. I noticed she was still obsessed with toys and drawing, as if she just didn’t want to listen to me. She was my daughter and my first child with Yutaka and therefor I loved her, but it was obvious that Damian and Yuumi were just much more gifted.

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I got old. Real old. And it made me feel horrible. Yutaka was still so young. Soon he would leave me for someone else, someone younger. Maybe someone who would give him more children, who would actually love them.  Yutaka noticed something was wrong and asked me about it. I told him my fears and he said that I was an idiot. He would always love me and would always find me beautiful. It renewed my confidence and my faith in our relationship. I quit my job: it was time to enjoy my final days with the love of my life.

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Luna did poorly at school. Her teacher said she was always daydreaming and drawing, nothing like Damian had been. I was annoyed with her attitude towards her performance and started pushing her to do more homework. She could have a bright future as long as she worked hard. Maybe even go to college, have a career and be succesful. Why couldn’t she see that? Damian on the other hand did amazing. I actually liked spending time with him and talk about his future.

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Twan finally aged up but didn’t stop working which surprised me in every way. We barely spoke to each other anymore. He was just living here, that was it. Damian remained a great student while rocking it on his snowboard. Yuumi really was a gifted child: she picked up on everything Yutaka and I learned her so fast. And Luna... Luna played with toys. Like always.