Aug 2, 2016
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tumblr: raise your hand if you're not okay
me: so i punched a hole in the roof
"When I was drowning, that's when I could finally breathe." I never really fully understood the meaning behind this lyric, but I knew I loved it. Now I have a new understanding for it, which makes me love it even more. Even though it felt like I was drowning in my sadness, I felt like I was finally able to breathe again. I didn't have this huge weight of stress and anxiety and fear sitting on my chest anymore. Even though it hurt to lose this person and it broke my heart, there was also a relief that came with it. I no longer had to stress over taking care of myself plus the person who wasn't able to take care of me. I no longer had to stress over the money I always had to spend because he never had any. I no longer had the anxiety over whether we were doing things right or if someone was going to get in between us. And I no longer had the fear of what our future was going to look like. Not only was I drowning after it ended, I was drowning even before. I was drowning in a one-way relationship. Even though he wanted to be with me, he didn't want to take care of himself, let alone me. He didn't want to grow up and take on the responsibility that came with being a man committed to a woman. I was drowning in the constant waves of "is this really what I want to deal with for the rest of my life" and "but I love him." But after it ended, even though it gave me such a strong heartache that left me drowning, I could finally breathe. I could focus on me again, I could save up and look forward to a future that was no longer uncertain or worrisome. I may have lost him, but I found myself. And somehow, that's everything.
TAYLOR WAS RUNNING FROM THE WOLVES AND WHEN SHE WAS DROWNING THE WOLVES STOPPED CHASING HER, SO SHE WAS DROWNING BUT SHE COULD BREATHE BECAUSE SHE GOT AWAY.
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Can the rain stop pouring down so I can go for a walk please
I WOKE UP AND WOLDEST DREAMS IS THE NEXT SINGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SCREAMED SO LOUD BUT NO ONE HEARD A THING (BECAUSE I'M THE ONLY ONE IN THE HOUSE)