on the same thread, from a different POV || the one who leaves:
Tonight I'm letting you go, not because it feels good, and not because I ever wanted to—certainly not for your sake, but I have to.
I have to let you go, I have to move on without you, cook dinner without you, brush my teeth without you, watch the news without you, and go for silly little walks without you. I have to let you go because it hurts like hell—if I don't, you burn me alive when you stay and I know you do.
You stay in my energy all day long, won't leave me alone, won't admit that you were wrong. I know you use the cards in your deck to breathe down my neck, and you think yourself an empress when we all know you're but a fool or better yet a devil.
You drain me cause you miss me, and I miss you too, but i don't miss you more than i miss myself; and I need to let go of you, I have to.
I have to let you go and leave my heart behind also, so I can grow a new one. one that never loved you, one that never lost you, one that never had to mourn all our dreams that had barely been born before they died in my arms.
Tonight I'm letting you go, not because it feels good, and not because i ever wanted to—certainly not for your sake! But it's the only way I'll keep myself from crumbling today and tomorrow. I'll enter a new year free from heartache, free from fear free from all the tears I've wasted on you—like a tsunami they won me over for months on end, so difficult to comprehend how you went from lover to friend to stranger again.
I have to let you go, I need to seat myself at front row to my own show. Knock knock, you're not welcome here—there's nothing more to talk about, I have nothing more to say to you, you know what you did and continue to do. Go ahead, turn right back around, the door is there. Tonight I'm letting you goa