Hi Airlock! For the OC asks... Could I please ask these for both Cobalt AND Taar?? (Even after all this time, Cobalt and Taar are still on my mind. The image in my head of Cobalt grabbing Taar's belt will NEVER leave me 🥺🫠🫠🫠)
👻 - What’s their biggest fear?
💭 - What do they think about the most?
💫 - What are/were their plans for “after the War”?
Thank you so much!!
Hi hi! :D
Cobalt's biggest fear is letting people down. Which, you can imagine, happens frequently. This isn't something he can avoid. It's a constant, prickling anxiety and reality for him. He will let people down. He will fail people. All because of what 4844 did to him. Part of his healing and growth post war as Koda's Padawan is learning to appropriately place the blame on 4844 and being kinder to himself. He learns to mitigate people's expectations of him, which he wasn't free/able to do as a trooper. A lot of his healing comes directly from Koda's lack of expectations. Every advancement and achievement Cobalt makes under Koda's instruction is usually a surprise to both of them and celebrated as such.
Taar's biggest fear is for Cobalt's well being. Post war, he's not nearly as tangled up in Cobalt's safety, but he still insists he accompany Koda, Synth, and Cobalt when they're out doing Jedi stuff even though he doesn't technically have to. Taar's seen enough Jedi self-sacrificial shenanigans from Koda that he doesn't want Cobalt to get the wrong sort of idea about ideal Jedi behavior. (LOL) Taar and Synth hold the brain cells on these outings. u-u Taar's going to go prematurely gray, even with the accelerated aging corrected.
Cobalt thinks about a lot of things. During the war, he thought about his batch-mates, his squad, and would obsessively reread manuals and orders and briefings to make sure he was going to remember everything he needed to know for missions and battles. (And would still forget.) After the war, he constantly overworks himself to learn Koda's instructions in the Force, and lightsaber forms, being excessively studious and making other Jedi jealous of Koda's "model student". Except Cobalt struggles to remember everything he learns, so there are often bizarre gaps in his information. He trains his body hard, so his muscles remember what his mind can't. Koda isn't hard on Cobalt, and often encourages him to take breaks because the mind has to rest.
Taar, as one of Koda's lieutenants, thinks more strategy, more logic, and is more concerned about getting things done rather than remembering information. During the war, Taar's mostly business. He's not cold, but he's definitely calculating, methodical, and distant. Accustomed to losing soldiers, and being frustrated with Cobalt's memory problems. Those frustrations eventually give way to over-protection and reassigning Cobalt to assist Koda directly instead of being in more immediate danger where his memory causes other people to be killed. Post war he keeps himself occupied by helping Cobalt learn Jedi stuff and assisting Synth with the logistics of Koda's research. Being more methodical, he balances Synth's recklessness.
After the war, at least talking about the Invictus AU here and not Adrift on Celestial Seas, Cobalt is Koda's Padawan! Koda is a descendant of Sith pure bloods and has concerns he may eventually fall to the Dark side like all his ancestors. Before the war he primarily worked in research and history, trying to find out as much as he could about the psychology of the Sith vs. the history of his own family. It begins to become a bit of an obsession during the war, as the death and loss and pain begin to overwhelm him, but thankfully Synth is able to help him see how his obsession with avoiding becoming a Sith is actually causing him to creep closer to the Dark (like a self-fullfilling prophecy of sorts). Koda doesn't fall, and takes Cobalt as his Padawan, and the four of them travel the galaxy expanding on Koda's research into Sith history. It means they come into contact with a lot of dark, evil things, but post war, the four of them are extremely well equipped to mentally handle whatever the Dark wants to throw in their path.
Becoming a Jedi allows Cobalt to stay in touch with his batch-mates, and sticking with Cobalt gives Taar a life he never dreamed he'd get to have. It's not nearly as peaceful as he expected a Jedi's life to be, so he's glad he and Synth are around to keep their two Jedi out of harm's way.