eric was irina’s first love and after their conversation in the underworld she hadn’t felt more crushed in her whole lie. it was like eric had decided that he didn’t need her anymore and that she didn’t need him, even with that being completely untrue. she didn’t want to stop visiting him, ever. his words sinked in though, for her to be able to fully give herself to ryder, she had to get over him. it was hard, it was painful and it was like he had died all over again. somehow she found the strength to get out of her corner cuddled up with nova in hades cabin and make it to adonis. although the water works hadn’t started they were all too evident. She knocked on the door light, kid of hoping he wouldn’t open it. “ Ryder? ” she was barely audible after a few seconds of nothing she felt a wash of relief. Maybe he wasn’t in the cabin and she could just cry to nico about all this instead.