Sep 21, 2017
❝ DO YOU KNOW SOMETHING I DON’T ? because i’m totally confused here. ❞ / @clownfears
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❝ DO YOU KNOW SOMETHING I DON’T ? because i’m totally confused here. ❞ / @clownfears
❝ -------- is he always like this ? ❞ / @clownfears
♡ + family
@clownfears .. MEME !
i. family is a very sticky subject for bill. especially after georgie’s disappearance / death. bill actively used to seek out parental comfort after the event. bill needed his family but his family didn’t want him. bill would actively do things that once made his parents happy. ex : bill would play the piano in an attempt to get his mother to play once more. to teach him once more. to pay attention to him once more. instead, he would get chastised and yelled at .. to which, the piano would slowly gain dust. slowly, bill slips into ( not only ) revenge against pennywise but revenge against his parents. perhaps, if he brings back the head of whatever killed georgie, he’ll FINALLY get an answer. to finally be loved once more .. but even if is parents did give him positive attention again. in another verse, bill wouldn’t be able to fully accept it. the guilt his own family put on him would forever weight in on his mind.
ii. that was too sad for me so i’m gonna go ahead and slam this down. THE LOSERS CLUB IS BILL’S FAMILY. where he didn’t have the support from his parents, he had the support from the club. bill is so very grateful for all his friends loving him. being there for him. being his voice of reason. it’s another reason why bill WISHES it was only him being plagued by it. wishes it was ONLY him going into the sewers. he can’t afford to lose another family member to this entity. / without the loser’s club, i can tell you .. bill denbrough wouldn’t have survived his guilt and depression.
Entry #41: Fucking Friday, Fuck...
07.10.16 @7:08pm So CLOWNS... I am terrified to go to school thanks to the news... So let me tell you about an event that happened three days ago (04.10.16). After class I walked to the bus stop. Then I was like "fuck it, I'm going to walk home". I was almost 3/4 out when I saw two tall figures... They were wearing dark janitor like clothing and their face was white... I didn't see no hair and no face features... They were walking from side to side, one getting on and off the sidewalk... So as a normal person I walk away... Looking back every 3 seconds to make sure they weren't running towards me because we all know I would instantly die... And yes I cannot confirm this but I don't deny being scared... I don't like what people do anymore...