「 @codesblue as elena gilbert says 」 : I DON'T WANT TO UNDERSTAND , I JUST WANT YOU TO STAY .
somewhere , a bullet - shell collides with cement . somewhere , an innocent bleeds , gasping for air , crying for help . it haunts a mind shaped by order and justice . a mind fixated on a job with lines so blurred : moral vs. immoral . bad vs. good . most clash in the department itself . hunting and tracking the corrupt . when do you have time for anything else ? is that not why your siblings were stripped from your care , detective ? is that now why you're all alone ?
‘ look , i'm not — ’ a sigh departs , ochre gaze meeting floorboards . ‘ i'm no good at this , okay ? relationships … they just sort of crumble around me . romantic , platonic … ’ there's a pause , an ache blossoming in his chest , ‘ familial . ’ vocals are whisper - pitched , pained . in inhale through flared nostrils with a loss so great . jordan , vinessa , even celsete . he taints and loses everything he touches . ‘ it's just … not good idea . ’ a beautiful vision before him , kind - hearted and nurturing , one he will not ruin .