Today is another hard day going to work. I’m really concerned for Connor because he threw up twice last night and we aren’t sure why. We’re guessing it’s from stress because he had 3 meals at appropriate times and he said he drank enough water in his water bottle I bought him that measures how much he drank. We went to bed at 9 PM and I stayed up until 12 AM watching the Netflix show “Cheer.” It’s 22 degrees outside and I felt cold waking up in bed this morning. I know it’s cold when I hold my pee because it feels to cold to leave the covers. The air made my ears feel very cold walking to the train but it’s blue skies and no clouds today. I’m on the 8:15 AM train to Grand Central and everyone is looking at their phones, working on their laptops, and/or listening to music. I have my headphones in listening music to try and be happy. I feel a lack of purpose for losing my accounts to Dan at work. I just while away the time at work trying to help Dan but then leaving right at 5 PM. I don’t feel like going to the Bausch & Lomb as agency dinner tonight because I feel like I don’t help the account that much and could be fired from Amazon soon anyways. I really want to have longevity at a great company and succeed there.