#coldtalk

[coldforest]

after a lot of self reflection and consultation, i have decided to turn 30 today. i appreciate your support at this difficult time

[coldforest]

I NEED to get into the movie industry somehow purely to make a Carrie film where she's fat and has acne like in the book. I just need to make my film and then immediately leave the industry forever

[coldforest]

I love oatmaxxing. granola with oat milk and an oat milk iced matcha latte. #myoats

[coldforest]

Antidepressant Discontinuation Syndrome is kicking my ass right now and it’s making me soooo mad. What do you mean, these symptoms of nausea and dizziness and tremors and aches and fatigue and sudden bouts of severe depression are being caused by the fact I’m haunted by the ghost of a mysterious preparation from my local apothecary (sertraline)??

[coldforest]

And in the evening, when I walk my dog —

Age-curated predator, fox-thin, bullet head

Gliding through the night’s silk —

She stops by the hedge outside our house

And peers her fortune teller eyes into the knotted branches, messy with shadow

She has seen a cat in there, months before, once

Foretold in the shine of her dinner bowl

And so she checks, and checks, and checks

Wet snout divining the winter air

And I smile at her, and shake my head, indulgently

And guide her beyond the gate, thinking her a fool

But as I unclip her collar, my eyes turn skywards

Consulting the dark velvet and its salt-scatter of diamonds

For the shooting star I saw there, months before, once

Hope held in desperate hands and burning through my fingers

And yearning, and yearning, and yearning

For the universe to blink back

[coldforest]

me realising i’m crushingly desperately lonely: i should self isolate. as a treat

[coldforest]

Happy birthday to my wretched beast 🥳 she may be 6 today but she still only has 2 brain cells

[coldforest]

Also look at my dogy on holiday