I am filled with the most ridiculous Coliver feels as back-to-school season starts. (I need season two now)
Connor’s summer internship wraps up the last week of July and Middleton classes don’t start until after Labor Day so, starting August 1st, Connor’s at a bit of a loss. Months of running on adrenaline and coffee have taken a toll and he spends the first few days sleeping in long stretches; only really waking when Oliver comes home and prompts him to shower and eat and go outside.
Once Connor’s caught up a little on sleep, the boredom of no work and no school sets in hard.
He marathons shows on Netflix and texts Oliver updates throughout the day. Oliver! Oliver! Olivia Pope has been kidnapped!!! Oliver! Fitz needs to do something! Olivia is MISSING!!!! - Then it’s - What?? Frank just becomes President??? Is this what politics is like?? Oliver. I want to be President. Can I be President? Can we run for President? I’ve watched all of West Wing and most of House of Cards. I’m so prepared. We’re gonna do it. It’s gonna be awesome. Oliver comes home one day to find Connor sobbing at the season four finale of Parks & Rec (the one when Leslie wins the City Council election). Through broken sobs Connor weeps out “It was her dream! She achieved her dream!” and Oliver decides it’s time to change the Netflix password. Connor threatens to withhold sex until Oliver gives over the new password but it does not turn out to be as effective a negotiation tactic as Connor had hoped and the password remains a mystery.
With more free time, Connor also gets back to running. At first it’s hard, harder than he thought it would be, to get back into it but eventually he finds his stride again. His pace is nowhere near his old personal bests but he doesn’t really think they are anything to be ashamed of either. He runs until his muscles are warm and loose and the pleasant burn in them is satisfaction enough. After a run one day, he meets Oliver for lunch in the courtyard of Oliver’s building. They wait in the food truck line for the best gyros in the city and eat them off paper plates by the courtyard fountain. Connor steals Oliver’s extra Tzatziki and tells Oliver all about the new park he ran through that morning. Oliver listens happily, noting the tan on Connor’s cheeks and how clear his eyes look. No longer glassy and red-rimmed from too much caffeine and not enough sleep, Connor’s eyes look clear and focused. He looks so happy and energized - more like himself than he has for months - and Oliver hopes classes never start up again.
But the end of August rolls near as it is bound to do. Professors email out class lists and syllabi. When Oliver comes home from work one day, piles of books are spread over their counter and Connor’s hunched over his computer, squinting at the small font. Oliver flips on more lights because “You shouldn’t read in the dark like that. It’s bad for your eyes” and Connor just grunts a little in acknowledgement. The rest of the night is quiet. Dinner is quickly over with the only topic of conversation all the work Connor has to do before classes start back up. Afterwards, Oliver turns on the TV and Connor picks up his laptop to keep working while Oliver channel surfs. When Oliver turns it off a little while later, Connor doesn’t even lift his head. Oliver stands and leans down to kiss Connor’s temple, “I’m going to bed.” Connor makes a vague promise to come along soon that they both know is a lie. Climbing into the cool sheets alone, Oliver feels like he’s already starting to lose Connor all over again.
They go away for a last minute trip the weekend before school starts. It’s quick but necessary. They spend they day sightseeing and window shopping and enjoying each other’s company. At night, they leave the windows open to hear the cicadas and make love gentle and slow. To Oliver, Connor’s touch feels like an apology and a promise all in one. Making amends for future wrongs while vowing that this year is going to be different Afterwards, Oliver wraps his arms around Connor and hooks a leg over his hip. Ignoring the sweat slowly running down his back, Oliver clings, wanting to hold this moment fast. Fuse the feeling in his memory for the weeks and months of late and lonely nights to follow.
The first day of classes, Oliver’s phone is eerily silent and he keeps picking it up to check it’s on. He’s become so used to the buzzing of Connor’s texts that a morning of radio silence leaves the hair on the back of his neck on edge. Over lunch, he finally gets a buzz and almost drops his sandwich in his haste to answer.
It’s a picture of what Oliver assumes is Annalise Keating’s office and it is full of piles upon piles of banker’s boxes. The text follows quickly. Don’t wait up tonight. She’s got us looking for a needle in this haystack.
Oliver frowns. It’s only noon on the first day and Connor’s already going to be there all night. Resigned, he texts back, What do you need?
Nothing. Then, moments later. You.
Touched, Oliver responds, You have me.
Then I’m good.
Oliver waits for more to follow but nothing comes and, not wanting to disturb, he lets Connor go.
Many hours later, Connor walks into the apartment as Oliver’s reading in bed. Dropping his bag and books in a pile on the couch, Connor shoulders off his suit coat and tugs off his tie. At the edge of the bed he toes off his shoes, drops his pants, and tugs off his shirt.
Oliver smiles in loving amusement as Connor burrows under the covers and up against Oliver’s side. “How was your first day?”
Connor just shakes his head and hugs Oliver’s waist.
Bookmarking his place, Oliver puts his tablet aside and turns off the light to burrow down too. Brushing the hair back from Connor’s forehead, Oliver asks, “How are you?”
Connor huffs out a breath and looks up with weary eyes. “I’m good now.”
They fall asleep curled around each other. Both wishing that summer had never ended.














