#college thangs

[cutegorl]

I wish I had the courage to do what you’re doing and take the semester off, it’s so brave and smart and wise but I’m gonna be 24 and I feel like I should’ve graduated a long time ago and I want to be able to say I’ve graduated to nosy family members so I’m going to school this semester even though I’m doing awful mentally and should probably go to treatment and it will affect my grades. Only like 15 weeks in the semester, right? 😔

Hi, babe. Personally it’s not my choice to take a semester off so it’s actually affecting me a lot. It hurts so much and I wish I was going back in a few weeks but I’m not and it sucks.

I want you to know that there’s nothing wrong with taking time off school for any sort of reason because that is reason enough for you. School will always be there and the whole “oh you absolutely have to get a degree in 4 years” mentality is total bs. Focus on yourself and what works best for you. No one’s journey looks or feels the same and that’s totally okay. Much love to you xo.

[cutegorl]

How life is really going:

Gonna do this in a bulleted list bc thoughts are hard and it’s easier lol

college is hard work but I’m managing but I already want to change my major

I haven’t been treating my body kindly and my body is reflecting that - internally and externally

food is incredibly hard and I feel like I’ve completely lost my intuition

body checking has been the worst its ever been and I’m contemplating taking my mirror down

I've felt extremely lonely even though I know I’m not alone

to end on a positive note; I really want to change and get better and I’m trying to find the motivation to actually pursue recovery

[cutegorl]

Good morning friends ☀️ pb & jelly oats this morning after taking my psych exam!! Y’all I’m feeling really good about it - as soon as the exam was put in front of me it was like my brain went “girl you know this, you totally got this” and my hand just went with it 🤷🏼‍♀️ after handing in our exams my professor gave us our papers back that we wrote about 1.5 weeks ago and y’all I GOT AN A 😭 I’m just so flipping surprised and I don’t know why I doubt myself so much??? So my positive affirmation for today is: You are capable of so much more than you think. You are smart. You are strong. You CAN do this. I called my mama right after I got out class to tell her my good news bc she’s my best friend ok?? And she thinks I should treat myself (aka challenge myself) to a yummy treat. ED immediately shut that down but I’m really thinking I should do it. Food in general has been SO hard but I know I have to face my fears so why not start doing so?? Idk I’m just so confused and scared and idk what to do. I’m sending so much love to y’all and I hope you’re having an amazing Tuesday so far ❤️

[cutegorl]

How are you? How is school so far?! Sending you love <3

Hi angel! Thanks for checking in :) I’m hanging in there. School is great, but it’s hard being away from home and only knowing like one other person who goes here. I’m an extremely extroverted person so I’m having a hard time with the fact that making friends isn’t as easy as it usually is for me. I feel really lonely but I’m trying to keep my spirits up and trust the journey I’m on. I hope you’re having an amazing day so far xo

[cutegorl]

How do you like college?

I only just started about a week ago, but so far I’m liking it! It’s challenging and a lot of work but I’m just so grateful to be here. The loneliness is hard but once I find my footing (and more friends) I’m sure that’ll subside. Thanks for asking! :)

[cutegorl]

Coffee is a cup of hope in a world full of 8ams

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Here’s to my first semester at college 🎉Thank you to everyone who has shown me so much support and love throughout my journey so far. This is only the beginning and I can’t wait to share it with you all 💛 

[historys-hoe]

ugh o-week starts tomorrow and i’m hella nervous