The hardest month to go through (for me) is March...
I always thought that April was the hardest month to go through all because they have this saying that April was the month full of knots, ups and downs for all I care but for me March it is.
I have been a student in UP (University of the Philippines) for almost 3 years and let me tell you it is never easy. Yes it still my dream university and being part of it goes both ways of being proud and striving to fucking survive college that is for sure.
When being a student in UP is all I am the interest of joining the university's organization piqued my interest. Back story!!!!!
Like what I said in the beginning, UP was my dream school and being part of the BA Communication Arts program was my top choice. I was determined to strengthen my communication skills, to widen my knowledge for my love in theater and lastly trying to get out of my cousin's shadow who also graduated in the same degree program as I am. I was enjoying at first because WTF, I was a fucking iska in the making.
But then affiliations started. My first affiliation came to me at my 2nd semester as a freshmen, the sorority then 2 years later my dream org fucking finally invited me, The UPLB Com Arts Society. ComArtSoc was my dream org, despite all the stories my cousin told me since she was an alum of it, I actually wanted to be apart of it. Also my "best" friend who is a resident member fucking invited me so I said yes into the process of being one and boy did I ever regret my fucking decision.
2 weeks. Two fucking weeks was all it takes to get through the hardest whole of this needle until I actually did not really went it. I failed to. All because they created this hierarchy and the so called fucked up grading system. I mean who the hell creates a stupid grading system and based it on their fucking rejections? The stupidest part of it all was that they rejected me all because they said I was a fucking FLOATER. Can you believe it me? A FUCKING FLOATER?! BITCH I HAVE HEAD AN EVENT ALL BY MY LONESOME SELF BACK 2 BACK AND IT WAS FUCKING SUCCESSFUL AND THE ORG ONLY HAVE WHAT, ONE EVENT? Get this, that fucked up event was only a seminar.
Long story short, they have issues and all of them are fucking assholes who never deserved me. I love my bestie and all but I promise myself to never ruin Sok in her eyes especially how much that org is now apart of her growth as a stage manager.
I am never going back there even if they invited me next term. They do not deserve all my energy and effort. ComArtSoc is now ruined for me.