One thing I hate about social media is how you always see things but you’re never prepared with how to deal. Chester Bennington’s suicide has me so fucked up right now. Being a black girls loving the alternative and grunge scene as much as I do doesn’t come without judgment and some side eyes. Musicians like Chris and Chester made you feel like you belong.. No matter who you were, what color you were, religion, whatever.. I’ll never forget my older brother giving me the Hybrid Theory album. I listened to “Crawling” every single day on my walk to and from school on my CD player. I’ll never forget how the words just felt so right. Like everything I wanted to say but never could was written down and sung for me.. Its a painful feeling to hear that he’s gone. I know what its like to want to kill yourself because someone violated you. Feeling like a shell of a person every single day no matter how any reasons I had to be happy. Chris and Chester's music was and still is the soundtrack to my life. I was about to purchase my tickets to his show that they were having at the venue by my apartment. It would of been my first time ever seeing him live. I just wish he knew that he had fans out there like me who followed everything he did. Who hung to every word he sang. I just hope he’s at peace finally. Maybe if I ever get to heaven, him and Chris will play me a song.
