Ending blog activity
I’ve been experiencing far too many difficulties in finding time to sit down to draw and too many of my art inspirations are ending up dropping like flies too quickly. I’ve only picked up a tablet well over a year ago then everything and everyone else I looked up to have changed course. I’m the only one stuck in my little bubble of things I like and this has taken it’s toll on me and my drawing passion.
Now I’m not here to say I’m not gonna’ draw anymore, but I am going to put this blog on hiatus. It’s already far too slow for me and thinking about it doesn’t keep me on the track I want to go.
I’ve been working on a story / game thing in my spare time and that’s been taking most of my creative power, but it’s keeping me from deciding what else I should be drawing (it’s also making me de-prioritize everything else I want to draw due to such an unstable lifestyle). Compound this with needlessly difficult living circumstances: Not getting any federal / state aid for college, forced to give plasma as my only source of income between the time I get terminated / forced to endure mentally draining tasks at jobs until I have to leave, not being able to get to the interview process for 95% of the jobs I apply at, and all this while going to classes (only part time because I can’t afford full time classes) has me in a bind. Doesn’t help that my only actual way to remove stress from my life have been video games exclusively.
I’ve been drawing in my spare time and I’m not ready to throw in the towel, but I’ve not been given the time I need to focus drawing my passions. It’s been getting so bad that I can barely muster a drawing that I want to make each week, rather than every day which was my original goal. So as a result this blog has been just at seemingly random getting a post here and there like maybe every month at best. If you know me on discord and would like to talk to me about this I’m up for any discussion. Maybe I just needs friends that draw or play D&D or something, because right now my art drive has been reaching it’s limit and something in my mind subconsciously tells me if I try to push my drive any harder that I will start to experience burnout or even stress from drawing. I also don’t feel as advantaged as the other artists I’ve ran into who’ve tackled their reason to keep going or who have a stable enough lifestyle to make the arrangements they need for drawing.
Most of my recent drawings I’ve been going further and further into the smaller details, but I’ve been getting slower and slower with each passing month. I’ve been drawing so many things yet I don’t have the will or passion to finish any of them and I leave them to sit in my hard drive. The moment I get past a certain stage of drawing my will to complete it takes a nosedive. My passion and interest just drops faster and faster than when I originally took up drawing where I had interest in my drawing even after putting it down on the canvas.
Hopefully you guys understand the circumstances, once again I’ll be happy to talk about these things to anyone (not just Discord fellas). I don’t know what will get me to power through these IRL obstacles, but all I know is that drawing alone is NOT getting me there.