((Inspired by the works of: @praecipiopatronum @sirussly @dontthinkonithermione @asktheboywholived @siriussly-serious @ohtheclevernessofme1972 @softsiriusblack - they have varying levels of how active they are currently, but these are just a few of the creators whose content I have really enjoyed!
My biggest wish is to be able to participate in the HP RP community. I love the idea of cosplaying and creating stories and worlds that are away from reality where things go the way you plan them (to a better degree than daily life). Since I can’t participate in the RP side, here’s my contribution to an AU I created a story around that I hope creators, writers, or anyone can enjoy using and playing with if they like it!))
The thing with Wolfstar that makes it work is this: they balance each other out. Sirius is confident in himself and his identity, he’s secure in himself. What he’s not secure in is his family, or where his identity stems from. Remus, on the other hand, is not secure in his identity at all. He sees himself as a monster, as dangerous, as a beast whose worth is titled by the number of X’s beside this species in a Magical Beasts textbook. But from what we know of his backstory, he is secure in where his identity stems from - his parents. We know they’re fiercely protective of their son, and they want him to have an ease to life that they all know isn’t feasible. It’s a balance of security of identity versus security of origin, or family.
So, we must switch it.
Lyall Lupin is a “world-renowned authority on Non-Human Spirituous Apparitions” (Harry Potter wiki) and his knowledge of dark creatures helped contain the threat of them during the prelude to the first wizarding war. He sat in on Greyback’s hearing, which not just anyone of the ministry would do. In canon, this is where he made a comment about werewolves deserving nothing but death, which caused Greyback to bite Remus in retaliation.
But in this universe, Lyall was the one to find, and was one of the men to capture Greyback while he was off biting and killing muggles. He now can testify the facts that he knows to be true, that he has seen to be true, and suddenly his status of the ministry begins to rise. And sure, Greyback can testify with tears in his eyes that he is innocent, that he had no control, that he promises to keep himself away from people and they can let him go. But now Lyall has a higher position in his department, now he has higher power, and now he, a bloodtraitor, has power that he didn’t before.
But this time, Orion Black is sitting in on the hearing as well. And before it starts, he makes a side comment about a filthy blood-traitor handling the work for a real wizard, and an argument spurs to a near-fight between Orion and Lyall. Lyall worked hard for his position, and his happy family has no business being in the mouth of a foul, dark, and insane wizard such as Orion.
The Blacks hate that Lyall has power within the Ministry. The Lupins were purebloods before Lyall married Hope, a muggle, of all people. And Orion’s blood supremacist views show through.
Lyall is removed from the courtroom and told to go home, finish more important work that he has. So he does, and his anger boils over to a shouting match against his wife and son, and he nearly breaks his desk in the process.
That’s what Remus grows up with. The stress of Lyall’s job, the nasty words of distaste from pureblood families, from the Sacred 28, gets to his head, and all he can do is take it out in fights and shouting. So, like canon Sirius, Remus learns to hide how he hurts under a mask of confidence and ego.
But Lyall hates this, he hates that his son doesn’t seem to care about anything, and soon, he’s telling Remus to stop being such a disappointment, that he needs to make something of his life.
Remus is secure in himself, but his security in his parents is crumbling.
Now, the reason Orion was at the hearing is thus: the first war did not come out of nowhere. It took time for Voldemort to gain followers and it took time for dark wizards to come out of hiding. And the Blacks, holding the same ideals as the wrong side and being known for unorthodox uses of magic, while not all death-eaters are clear supporters of a growing threat. Fenrir Greyback hears of their support for a side ready to use violence to gain power, and wants an alliance.
If the werewolves can gain enough power, maybe they can overthrow Voldemort’s side and werewolves can now be the superior race. Canonically, that’s why he joined the death-eaters in canon. He doesn’t like wizards, but he likes getting what he wants.
Of course, Orion and Walburga laugh in his face. They would never help a filthy half-breed and sully their reputation. They would never aid a disgusting breed who deserves to go back to the ground that gave them life.
So Fenrir gets angry. He wants to show them that he cannot be walked all over. What better way to do that than to bite their eldest, their beloved heir?
Walburga and Orion try to hush it up. They get potions and charms and everything they can to make Sirius appear normal so that their reputation is upheld. As he grows older, he learns to trust his parents, that he’s safe with them. They don’t pay him much mind; its like a child hiding behind his mother’s leg and all she does is lay a hand on his hair and continue on her business.
But because he has no security in himself, he doesn’t act out. He complies, and the Blacks never have a reason to hate their son. So he grows up secure with his family, but not in himself.
After all, it’s a balancing act of security and not, and of finding security in each other.
