“Heaven without you would be hell.”
SFW ROMANCE STARTERS / ACCEPTING / @conqveress
He isn’t sure if she really means that, he knows she’s speaking figuratively. He’d… like to not believe it. Reiner gives a slight laugh, blind reassurance that won’t make her worry for him. Because there might be a very special place for people like him when they die; or not even anywhere at all. Question religion. What kind of god would place this upon its people? That bullshit was always just that. Bullshit.
Somehow, her words don’t effect him as he always imagined they would. All the times he thought about hearing such light-hearted , meaningful things… so why won’t he let himself believe in this sort of kind gesture? This… string of words that had always been a wonder to him.
“ - oh, it would be hell if that’s where i ended up. thing is, i kinda have this feeling they don’t let people like me in…”
Bittersweet. Words heavy, weighing him down; he doesn’t think of the moments that anytime before. It’s hard to push away the thought that he might be a good person, because he’s not. What others might say, he’ll never believe… and that’s just it. In the kind of world they live in…taking himself away from these people would really benefit them, wouldn’t it?