#coolarice

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dear summer school, can you chill for a sec? i want to work on my art i need more time

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It’s so weird, sometimes I feel like people are mad at me and I don’t know what’s their reason to be mad but at the same time I’m assuming it’s because I’m an annoying asshole.

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Today, my friends’ graduation photos came and I feel so emotional for many reasons.

One is that they’re going to different universities. They’re going to have so much fun there and they’re going to be so busy that I probably wouldn’t be able to see them anymore. Right now in high school we’re all already busy and we don’t see each other often. University life would be worse. I’m going to miss them so much.

Second, just the idea of being left behind scares me. They’re all moving on and I don’t even know if I’m going to graduate next year.

AND THIRD is that I’m hella proud of them. We always talk about what we want to be when we grow up and now they’re a step closer to their dream jobs. I know they’re gonna go far because they are such talented people and they are amazing. Days come when they don’t think they’re good enough but I know they are more than good enough. I know they got what it takes to succeed. I’m just super happy for them. I wish them all the luck in the world ❤︎

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Do you ever cry inside knowing that somebody actually care about you :)

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For the first time in weeks i don’t feel bad about myself. Today I’m happy. I’m going to bed happy. 

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I cried so much that I’m actually tired of crying. 

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weddings make me cry its crazy

but wedding dresses make me crazy I’m gonna cry

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Maybe it’s a little late for a New Year’s resolution so I’m just going to promise myself something: 

This year I won’t let the same people make me feel like shit.

This year I won’t let the same things bring me down.

This year I won’t let my jealousy and desires swallow me. It’s not going to make me feel worthless anymore. Instead, I’ll use that as my motivation to reach my goals.

This year I will break my bad habits step by step.

This year I won’t be scared anymore.

This year I will admit my mistakes.

I’m going to have my weak moments but I have to remind myself that it’s just another challenge, it won’t be the end for me.