i love lou so much it physoivcally hurts when i thinbk about how much i adore them and it hurts in a good way it makes me feel aluve
i think??? teh two of us have a hard time understanding each other sometimes but i also think????> it doesn't matter
we're so in sync that our friends can't understand our conversations i want lou as my siblinga nd my best friend and i don't know and when we start talking about our characters and world s i can forget everything i hve never been so into anything in my life as i am the worlds we created rogether
i'm so sorry about everything i'm so terrible to youy i never ever thought about you ever only myself i'm just so suerprisedf yous till hanga round with me and it isn't fair because now you think you've hurt m eor something weird and that's just not true you could never hurt me i only hurt myself
I'M SO PROUD OF THEM TOO OH MY GOD??? thjir art THEIR FUCKINGA RT they've always been talented but they've worked so goddamn had and it really shows and my god they're such an amazing artist now NAAD THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW IT THEY CAN'T EVEN RECOGNISE HOW GREAT THEY ARE THAT'S SO ENDEARING YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW
AND THEIR WRITING??? TEHY'RE EMBARASSED ABOUT IT I DON'T GET IT IT'S SO GREAT I REALLY REALLY WNAGT TO READ MORE OF IT I CAN UNDERSTAND BEING EMBARASSED THOUGH BUT I JUST HOPE THAT SOMEDAY THEY'LL BE CONFIDENT ENOUGH TOP LET ME READ IT BECAUSE I JUST ADORE EVERYTHING THEY WRITE THEIR CHARACTERS ARE SO HUMAN AND THEIR DIALOGUE SO REAL
i don't even know why i love lou so much but from the first time i ever heard them speak i knew i wanted to be their friend i'm not exaggerating i remenber it really clearly they read something out on our firsat day of school (i think it was induction day actually) and since themn i was always looking for a reason to talk to them
i'm so glad i wore that ccs bag to school
lou is also exceptionally brave ands toleranta nd i don't know
i don't know why i love you so muych i want to hug you forever and ever a nd ever and i don't even care what you thinl pof me i don't care just let me be near you always please never leave me completely please
i want you to be happy like really really happy forever you deserve it so much you're so thoughtful and patient ands yo u have so muxch to give
i wish i copuld be a better friend top you and that youcould trust me and i you but maybe its too late for tahta nd maybe it doesnt matter and maybe everythings just in my fucked up brain and maybe we were never nearly as close as i wanted us to be but i have always considered you my best friend and i always will and i want you to know that i am here for you and im not gonna say im yours because hey you knwi what??? youve taiufght me that im better than thaqt tahts the thing i love most about you i think
you help make people live for themselves
so i wont say sorry again either
instead what im gonna say is 'thank you'
thank you so much fpor existing. thank you for letting me be your friend, letting me love you, carrying on with the shit you like doing and setting an example to everyone by being you. thank you for smiling at me amd hugging me every morning and thank you for shouting at me and telling me i need to get over msyelf when i did. thank yio for being so kind to everyone and thank you for letting me write all this stuff about you even though maybe i've completely misinterpreted your charscter, maybe i'm so wildly wrong it's laughable
LOU LOU REMEMBER WHEN before i went away on holiday i found the notebook we used in germany way back in y7 and i tried drawing some of the viral jump kids again
we had a dark magical girl series before it was cool rock on
