big sis that decides she wants an even littler sister, and doesn't care how she gets it
sneaking all kinds of laxatives and diuretics into my food, and being there to comfort me and reassure me when i just don't understand why i can't make it to the bathroom on time. telling me that plenty of big girls have accidents, and maybe i should just start wearing pullups around the house until we get this figured out... and then pushing me from pullups to full-blown diapers when i just keep having "accidents"
encouraging me to dress more feminine and get rid of all my old boy-clothes, and even offering to buy me a new wardrobe... full of pink and frills. it all feels really childish, and i don't know if i believe her when she says that overalls and onesies are super in right now, but... big sis wouldn't lie to me, right?
getting me a pair of noise-cancelling headphones so i can sleep better at night, and slipping all kinds of sweet little nothings into the white-noise files she sends me. encouraging me to stay soft, and simple, and trusting in my big sis. reminding me what a good girl i am for using my diapers, for sucking my thumb and holding my big sis' hand, for being a sweet little girl that does what she's told
big sis that holds me soooo close and tight and says i'll always be her little sis forever and ever and ever no matter what
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