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Oh no... This one’s cute and just the perfect amount of flirty. I may be in trouble.

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When guys use group photos as their main picture and you're disappointed when you go to their second pic and find out the account isn't for the cute one 😂

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The fact that my gifset of Karl from last week is still getting notes makes the part of me that craves appreciation very happy.

But then I remember that the reason it’s getting notes has absolutely nothing to do with me and everything to do with the fact that he’s hella hot.

Which makes the part of me that loves him and wants all the good things for him very happy.

It’s a win-win actually.

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I’m done putting up with dudes’ crap. You wanna talk to me? Let’s talk. But it better be a two way street or I’m calling you out. Tell me what you’re here for so I know if we’re in the same universe. I don’t have the patience or mental-health fortitude right now to play games.

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It's going to rain all freaking week... I just need to go sit in the sun, people!! I need sun!!

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Just a big venting post about personal crap most won't care about...

The only co-worker I told about the fact that I was talking to a guy online asked me about him today. I told her we weren't talking anymore because he stopped replying and she told me he stopped replying because I didn't tell him I wanted him to ask me out... That's... dumb... right?

She had no idea what we talked about. No idea the nature of our conversations or the circumstances of him ghosting.

I mean, I initiated the conversation to begin with. I asked more than half the questions over the four days we talked. I was the last to message when he went well over a day without replying. I asked him another question. He answered and asked for my answer, which I gave. Then he never said anything back again. He was slow to reply throughout the four days.

I'm not sure what went wrong, but I can't help but feel like he would message ME if he was interested. I feel like me telling him, "Hey I like you. We should go out," just seems desperate. Maybe I'm wrong, but I was super frustrated when she told me it was my fault he stopped replying because I didn't tell him I wanted to go out.

I was struggling enough with the whole thing after he ghosted. My self-confidence was basically down to zero after several months of feeling pretty good about myself. Finally in the last 24 hours or so I wrapped my head around some things and was moving on. Then she adds to my already huge self doubt by telling me it's my fault in a way I wasn't already putting on myself.

I just sort of feel like I deserve better than to have to chase someone like that. But now I'm questioning everything wondering if I should have been more forward and somehow steered the conversation more to get him to see I was interested in going out.

I really hate everything about online dating. I hate the fact that guys make you question every single thing you do. As much as I would love to be in a relationship, I am SO over the process. And I'm pretty upset with said coworker for putting that on me when she knew ZERO things.

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Guy asked me what my favorite movie is. I don't have one. I love movies. All movies. Ask me who my favorite actor is. That's much easier to answer 😂

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Stepping on a scale for the first time in forever and finding that you’re about twenty pounds less than expected is... kind of a confidence boost to say the least. I still have a LONG way to go and just really started working on it, but knowing I’m a bit further ahead than I thought is motivating.