And the description of Auguste's death makes Damen look awful. Auguste was tired, he'd been fighting on the front lines unlike Damen, and he let Damen recover when he disarmed him. Damen couldn't even answer why he'd killed the first chance he got.
Eeeh, this is the touchiest of topics, if you ask me.
Once again, I think we have to focus on the goal of the conversations L&D keep having about Auguste and his death and the goal is to process it, to come to terms with it and move on. Laurent needs to realise that Damen isn’t a monster, but fought a fair battle, won a duel and came out of it winning. Laurent understands this and finally accepts this and that’s why and how he is able to be together with Damen, Prince Killer.
It’s a very difficult situation, but I personally find that the author makes an incredibly good job with it in the books, especially Prince’s Gambit. The changes and developments throughtout the series always felt very realistic and successfully handled. There was never a moment (and it happens to me all the time with other books/shows) where I stopped reading and wondered how on earth I had come to that point. It felt organinc and surprisingly well arranged. It made sense, both emotionally and practically. Going from loathing Damen more than anything else in the world to loving him so fiercely.
But then I have the feeling that she might have insisted on how amazing Auguste was a little too much. The Summer Palace offers the final blow you mention, Auguste being fair and noble until the very second and dying because of it. Do any of the stories Damen tells Laurent or even just privately thinks back to suggest that Damen didn’t fight appropriately? That he cheated? That he has something to be ashamed of? No, he fought according to rules, he fought for his father and country and took advantage of Auguste’s exhaustion and nobility. He did nothing wrong, formally. Do I personally feel that he doesn’t show enough emotional regret, though? I do. Every single time Auguste comes up, my heart literally breaks for him (and for Laurent) and I wish Damen would express a little more, I don’t know, sorrow? remorse? delicacy, at least? There’s a moment back in PG where he thinks about what he would do diffrently, how now he’d try to find a compromise with Auguste, instead of fighting him; he even thinks he wouldn’t like to be the same kind of king his father was, expanding and bringing war (and death) just to make Akielos bigger and more powerful. But those stray thoughts never manifest themselves further and not once he shares them out loud with Laurent.
Adding this final detail in the short story wasn’t maybe the best idea, but I don’t see many people complaining about it, so maybe it’s just us and a very small portion of the fandom feeling uncomfortable, anon? I’m not happy with the way the Auguste-Damen issue has been addressed from KR to TSP and I feel you, reading about Laurent’s sobbing out that why and having that kind of very lame reply, followed by Damen’s consideration regarding his own poor brother who once used to be a good person who brought him shells as a kid left me a bit ??. Like…Ok… I guess?
I’m aware this is a very sensitive, ticklish topic, I’m not very good at expressing my uneasiness about it. If you want to add anything, either in agreement or disagreement, please, do, I’d really appreciate it.