#cre rambles

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I don't know if I wanna splurge on a Wacom Cintiq 16 HD ($650ish) or just buy a desktop with a 24 inch screen for under $200.

The biggest reason I don't draw (other than my huge 2 year depression lmao) now is because my laptop is 9 years old and barely works so drawing a simple doodle makes the thing crash. I want to do commissions and draw more for my ships/in general.

Advice? Anyone have certain tools they prefer? My Bamboo tablet is 7 years old but still works perfectly fine but that Cintiq though..

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I freaking messaged a boy on a dating app. They are cute and we have a lot in common so !????. I don't expect a reply but the hardest part was actually getting enough balls to do it.

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Silly fic things

I'll write random things I've done during the day into my fic. For example: I ate at a whole-in-the-wall Italian place that was freaking amazing. Guess who's going on a date there in my next fic?

Stocked up on some tea tree oil and then shampoo/ lotion with a bunch of essentials oils because my skin hates me/relieves issues: Yep, lemme write that in for a character (Deadpool) to use.

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This Galaxy s10+ is cool as heck. I've never gotten the "newest and latest" phone before so it's kinda fun. THIS CAMERA OMG. I kinda feel guilty but my old phone was 4 generations old and crashing so.... yay? Lol

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It makes me sad that both people I dated who also cheated on me and were otherwise abusive are in happy relationships/married but I'm alone and no one is ever interested in me. I'm not perfect but Jesus, am I that ugly or just unappealing? I'm almost 30. Everything else in my life is going well or fine.

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"You should really treat yourself better than that" EXCUSE, WHY SO MUCH HATE FOR PINEAPPLE ON PIZZA??? Multiple people think I'm crazy for liking it. (Call out to @pinkrhinoceros and @satismagic lmao you anti pineapple weirdos) The conversation then devolved into how I fucking LOATHE olives on pizza and in general, but I was told "then you must hate mushrooms because they're the same thing." BWAHAHAAAA NO. Mushrooms are beautiful on pizza. 🍄🍍🍄🍍😍❤

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I don't understand why people think they can get away with treating others poorly.

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My queue has been empty – or everything other than holiday posts scheduled out anyways – for about a week but I’m too lazy to fill it lol