Maybe I should aspire to set my revolutionary wants in active engagement rather than hopeful organizational pledges on the web/flesh-space. No, it does not have anything to do with quitting or any counterrevolutionary acts, but merely a questioning of what I can do to achieve more in the field. In sincere doubts, I wonder if I can apply a mode of action merely in the depths of words as such. Surely, my journalistic veins stems a basic certainty, but alas I am much more of a philosopher, and quite the tabula rasa in that sense; not finished with my studies.
What I feel right this second is to care for my creative side, to nourish it even more. In this view, I feel that my talent for writing things could be used in a much more pleasant way, and in a way perhaps migrating this into something that can help the world to change. But It seems that my thoughts meanders again and again to the steps of diversity and this makes some of it to feel superfluous, because, what is the point of starting a serious web thing that is so closely tied to what my current blog already is?
My point is, I hesitate to be honest with myself and say that I need this right now for myself, but it stands against the reason of me wanting to do something that effectively does make a substantial difference other than a creative output that might give some happiness and response.
Hence, where in these connections of thoughts does the ramblings of a Swedish person who has the will of things to change, locally and globally, give rise to any winds at all? Well, for me, I am pretty sure that if I do something this time, it will be in the vein of my creative side other than the wish of change that I have had for months on months without any real palpable initiation.
Things won't change on here, I'll still read whatever theory and whatnot I come by and I will still do everything I can for things to turn for the better. However I will conclude with the fact that I cannot do something that is forced, and therefore it is much more pleasant to engage in a project that I will be able to give all my strength, even if it is in the creative field among things at the present moment.
