Before I begin, I would like to give a short background about my way of writing. This year has been immensely phenomenal for me, in terms of thoughts and being, in terms of spirituality (for the lack of a better word, but i will find it for sure). So most of my posts address my sense of "time" as lately, past few months, nowadays... something that means in recent times.
Getting back to the post. I now have a new habit. Purging. Gosh. It has been mentally and physically liberating every time I do this. Why physically? Because I feel a weight lifting off my body every time I purge my belongings.
Again, coming to "my" belongings. Another thing that I have realized is that, nothing truly even belongs to me. Even my body is just a vessel. However, what I truly can utilize to become mine, is my mind - thoughts, intentions, emotions and feelings, that bring forth my actions and breath - how deeply and intentionally i breathe. That is all I can say mine.
Now, creativity is something that i have just understood for myself. Not from dictionaries, or looking at what others are doing. It isn't simply about a painting, a craft or a design. It is more about making use of what one has at the present moment.
Something along the lines of: I am not looking over fences to find a better view. Because the grass is as green as it gets on my side of the fence.
Now that's where lies the creativity. A lot of my clothes from over 8 years still fit me. Even of good quality. So this year, i decided to make use of what I have and use it creatively. Because that is exactly where my skills and expertise lie - using bits and pieces of my clothes, and present myself creatively. :)
This thinking process has helped me evolve exponentially this year, i honestly feel like a different person, but still the same. I keep cultivating my who-ness. And my what-ness, secondarily. I mean, there was an image of myself, of a person I thought I would be. But never did I think it would someone like this. I am still getting to know the 'this' version of me. And I am absolutely loving the process.
