#creative drug

[jojcake]

Drunk driving my own hearse in all white, because everyday I was alive I wore nothing but black Because black is the only thing that is honest It doesn't pretend to be something it isn't It doesn't desire It doesn't weep It doesn't exist And that's what makes it honest Because when you are nothing You can do no wrong

Black // NoWhere

[jaspahh]

“People won’t understand that my day job is rehab

and I don’t want to be sober

I don’t want to get to know her

I just want to unknow myself and be reminded later

it’s always darkest before the dawn”

-nowHere, “Creative Drug”

[stuckonloop]

[180flipflop]

I just wanna unknow myself and be reminded later

Nowhere - Creative Drug

[awwec5150]

I’m not allowed to miss anyone I willingly left I thrive and I’m alone and right now I’m vigorous I have eyes for everyone and I write in lines of drugs cause I use you like I use this To hide from the light an’ moon like an addict so please, please, please so please let me wipe my feet off on your cheek before I enter your open mind - which Because I’m not allowed to just so happens to be an open wound - and just so happens to be just for me- and I just so happen to forget what happens to you when you figure out that you’re being used The lightbulb always comes too late, like I’ve already burned my escape - an escaped - I never asked for this cape to be pinned to my back but covers up the finger nail graves and I like the way that makes me feel so I let you let me keep it intact Dressing up my feelings as fact you slip the black mask over my face thats when I learned that great minds think alike but bad minds think exactly the same we used each other in bad taste and I can’t change, you can’t change you can’t change, you can’t change and I can’t change your mind, but I can change your clothes and I can’t make things right but I can get close I told myself to never write about love, I told myself to stick to what I know the more I learn, the more I learn how much I don’t My desire to create and get higher suppreses my urge to want to die right here, to die right now I want to bury my pain into something and someone else I’m always looking for an outlet a being or thing to love a new outlet for my suffering chopping up the latest creative drug and I take it to the brain when I breathe it in the steam, the trip, the energy I get, it’s only for one moment it’s strange using your arm like an 8-ball and using you like a one night stand and most people won’t understand that my dayjob is rehab and I don’t wanna be sober I don’t wanna get to know her I just wanna unknow myself and be reminded later it’s always darkest before the dawn but it’s darker with sunglasses on but I wear ‘em on in inside because when I create I’m an insomniac and everyone thinks I’m on crack but fuck it what’s the difference? Dependence is dependence, it depends on the way you look at it An addict is an addict and I can’t live without it, I don’t know how to live without it I don’t know how to function I’m not somewhere that I haven’t been and I’m not good at being home, and I’m not good at sitting still and my soul has ADHD and I’m definitely mentally ill and I don’t have a prescription for script, I can fill it out for myself the street runs for street drugs and I think think this street leads straight to hell and I’m on a streak of losing so inevitably time will tell But I’ll tell that I’m telling you that I really don’t miss my old self Or any of the ones that have abused me because I’m not allowed to I left 'em so willingly

[lustandlies-blog1]

 I listen to this on repeat, the flow is captivating

[axonterminal]

Bless up

[mardybumsconfessions]

My desire to create and get higher suppreses my urge to want to die right here, to die right now

Nowhere