#creators.exe

[zandiks-interests]

kinda wanna start a system server on discord for adults with did/osdd

because most servers we've been in were full of minors? and it's really uncomfortable for us because most (if not all) of us are adults and the body is 21

would anyone be interested??? I'll put a link in the comments or something if this gets enough interactions

or, alternatively, please recommend us servers for adults !

(endos dni)

- ethan, eleven EDIT/UPDATE: SERVER HAS BEEN MADE! https://discord.gg/xXuRZKV8mA

[zandiks-interests]

We've made a traumagenic system Discord server, for adults only! ----- The first three, main rules:

1) Absolutely no singlets or endogenics allowed. This is a space for traumagenic systems only.

2) Absolutely no minors allowed. If you are bodily below the age of 18, you are considered a minor. If you are bodily above the age of 18, please keep any underage alters away from this server. This is a mature, adult-only space.

3) No serious fights, bullying, or hatred. This includes, but is not limited to: Racism, Sexism, Homophobia, Transphobia, Syscourse, etc.

----- If this all applies to you, feel free to hop in and check it out!

https://discord.gg/xXuRZKV8mA

[zandiks-interests]

did i just unlock the most vile, traumatic childhood memories or was it just a nightmare? the world may never know

[zandiks-interests]

one of us still misses that goddamn asshole and if i find out who it is,,,,, i will start a fight (it's me. im most likely the only one left attached)

[zandiks-interests]

okay but im so insecure about not hearing my headmates

like. im aware they're there. i can feel their presence, and i can feel when they're feeling a set of emotions

but we don't verbally talk, like, we don't have conversations or something? it's all just, reading each other's emotions and reactions to things

also the fact that our amnesia isn't as severe just makes us fakeclaim ourselves constantly

emotional amnesia, sure, definitely – but generally we all share the same memories, as far as im aware at least

god why is this stuff so hard to figure out

[zandiks-interests]

being sick is like. the worst. sniffly, gross, snot everywhere, coughing is loud, sneezing is loud, there's fluids flying around, you can't breathe, your body hurts, you're so exhausted

ragh we're not going to school tomorrow

[zandiks-interests]

why does a sneeze dislocate my entire goddamn body

[zandiks-interests]

we told a friend yesterday that we're a system, explained everything indepth, even knowledge she's not entitled to (she wasn't entitled to any information in the first place)

and I said that usually, a third person can force us to switch by calling an alters name – and that sometimes we need that support from a third person because we can't control who switches in when , (the only exception being music, which we have to rely on excessively)

today in school, i (Eleven) got really pissed at our teacher, and i was walking up and down the schoolgrounds to settle down and kinda get the anger/energy out of the body

and this friend is like "oh your angry side is coming out" (meaning that I (Eleven) am fronting, and god did I cringe holy shit)

And she was like "is someone at the window?" And I said "yeah Ethan (our host), he's usually at the window" (our term for backseating)

And she immediately went "HEY ETHAN, COME OUT", ?????

Because she's scared when I'm fronting apparently?????????? Because I say shit how it is and get angry at stuff???????????

Like I'm not violent whatsoever, I would never get my headmates in trouble for hurting someone or breaking something, and we told her that - and now it's like, I wish we hadn't told her shit, because now she'll constantly think about it and ask shit and mess our management up

Like, if I'm out fronting, then there's a reason for that. We were in an uncomfortable situation and we'd rather deal with anger than breaking down crying.

She's treating us like a puzzle she needs to solve and it's pissing me off god fuck