explaining my reasoning for why tmasc raggy is peak
basically how i view rags and her trauma and behavior, it just screams the 'posh', conservitive upper upper class white family. shes always worried about being perfect emotionally and any attempts to reveal her feelings she deflects and fusses over something else. judging by how she reacts to being even slightly out of place tells me her 'mother' the bitch™ expected nothing but the perfect, obediant woman with a job easily abandoned should she have a family(real estate, its an easy job to leave without too much fuss imo, correct me if im wrong though)
shes forced to be this untouchable image of femininty, which isnt so bad, but what if she never felt comfortable in that role? what if was so placent because she didnt know she could be anything but that? she didnt know why she was always feeling wrong, out of place, because she wasnt supposed to be a woman. its an entirely fresh perspective on ragathas entire baseline, it makes her the primal opposite of jax, even if he isnt confirmed. he forces himself to be viewed as the perfect masculine model, while ragatha was forced INTO being the perfect feminine model.
i see tmasc rags as a version of myself i used to literally go to war with for years, thinking dysphoria is what made me a trans man, ragatha would wholeheartedly believe that imo and use it to say she isnt a man. but as zooble(and jax in my view of the circus :> ) have shown her, she doesnt have to be this perfect woman or man, she can be whatever he wants. as seen in my art hes occasionally in dresses and skirts, because just like me, being seen and referred to as male no matter hoe you dress is SO unbelievably liberating. i love being pretty with makeup and eccentric eyeliner with entire amazing designs, pretty dresses and skirts when im particularly a genderless blob of being(demiboy :P) and i imagine with reagan/beau not sure which is more fitting, reagan as a nod to the og name cause i love rags as a nickname and reags is close but beau is a more masculine doll/puppet themed name} i feel since he is often seen to make clothes, cant remember if that was canon off the top o my noggin- he would definitely have dresses hed made before and still feel so comfortable wearing but only in the comfort of his room, as he views himself as male before being out.
now when he does start exploring this new side of himself he never got to, without these forced norms on him, he can make and wear more neutral clothes with the help of gangle and zooble, and eventually pomni(as i view her as a very futch type of style) to help create these new designs he hadnt made before.{gangle with the artistic experience to sketch and create visual designs, zooble to measure and input more gender neutral style, and pomni for masculine styles}
he starts his outing by asking and hearing about zoobles gender discoveries and gangles input on various show tropes on gender in general, learning he doesnt have to just one thing. he can be anything he wants, and eventually, with their guidance they help him find what makes him happier, more comfortable, with no small amount of effort breaking though years of societal trauma worsened by the bitch™. zooble would suggest various pronouns, testing one set a few days and letting him pick what made the weight lift off his chest a little more. soon settling on he him almost exclusively as she her brought back the memories that followed him more than his own damn name or even his siblings names(the mannequins at the dinner table, ill explain my take on that whole....eugh, in another post...shit hit WAY too close to home for me :/ )
some clothes hed make that i think ill eventually start like actually exploring this.... eh not an au, more just how i view the cast, like personal designs with my own input of oc lore for them, its still the og cast but ive filled the blanks with my versions of who i think they were(also to be added in another post, i might make a whole thing of it, kind of like cheastykoopas au which is just the cast but with his/their?- i forgor rn im like half awake- kind of take of the cast dynamics and ofc the queenie mom au which is fuckin amazing love it, or like bluepandas au of just cute moments and interactions.) some clothes i think rags would make would be like cargo shorts, as most trans man imo start with those, dabbling in anything from dapper buttonups to just plain baggy tshirts. i doubt caine would be well versed enough to understand this whole gender thing so i imagine zooble would probably help make a binder for him, and debating how i wanna take his design as i continue making art, i might have either zoob give him a diy top surgery(probably just slicing the chest seams and removing stuffing as well as tightening the circumfrence of his chest to be more flat) or just having as revealed by the latest ep, kinger actually modifying his files/code in secret(the 'conjuring things' they possess kinda), long before caine lost his shit that is.
i think at least rags model doesnt reset in a factory reset way but more just patches into a more stable state, same for the rest of the cast but in differing ways. rags being patched with literal patches, gangles mask being lgued and ribbons being replaced, zooble having to scrap or replace entire limbs, kinger needing wood glue and wood chips, jax being like a rubber toy doesnt tear often or injure, pomni needing remolded a bit, the reset would only repair major damage like if jax or pom had a limb torn off it would be rrattached but thats it, if rags lost too much stuffing itd be refilled but holes would stay and need to be stitched, large chunks of kingers wood would be put in place but barrly hold on their own. so any model modifications to most models would be permanent unless a total model wipe/reset is requested
this is the end for now of my entire rant, mostly just to note down all of my views since a good friend got me talking about it which was honestly nice, ive never gotten to really share my worlds, most are just how i wish i could be , who i wish i was and the life, at least back then, i thought id deserved, now turned for the better into just my self insert as characters i see myself in with lore of this version of me but as that character instead which sucks cause i cant make these cool ass aus cause its just lore ive used to torture this version of myself 🫠
