…drat.
==> Sudrien: Be the other guy, the nice one.
YOU FAIL TO BE THE NICE GUY
There is an explanation for this. An explanation that, if given, means you have failed. Completely. The last time you gave that explanation as an explanation, you broke down in tears. Not "Make things better" tears, nor "relief" tears. Tears trying to prevent you from speaking, trying to keep you from saying the words that meant you had failed.
Tears which wet the edges of your eyes right now. Of helplessness.
Because whatever happened, if somthing even happened, its so far gone that the result can't even be called damage. It just what is. A crimeless victim?
When it's mentioned as somthing that's not an explanation, as just a fact - trying to be helpful - "Oh, i never would have guessed". That's not failure. That's what you wanted the whole time. And if it never comes up again, fine. Great, even.
But when there is trouble, there is no compensation. Nothing noticed - if you're lucky, ramifications happen soon enough that remember the error. The context. Because then, perhaps, just perhaps, you can stop yourself from doing it again.
From acting like yourself.