#crying and trying

[escaping-amish]

It’s been an emotional week.

[epickiya722]

I'm trying so hard writing this Mermay piece for my "Bodies of Water" series...

[tryalittlegentleness]

Lmao we made it almost a full month in quarantine before the stress and pressure of a full time job and six college online courses made me break down

Alas 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪 only forever more in quarantine

[mysexyimaginations]

This kinda sucks . They say when you let a bird go and if it comes back to you then its yours. My bird has flown back home. For a while but as i thought things were changing its really not. Were still the same scared teen and young adult we are before. It makes me sad because i want this to work. Im really trying to hold on but it feels weird this time . Its like we chose a side and its not mines. It feels like neathir of us chose me. I promise i want to be happy. On vacation he tried he really did and i fucked it up. The universe is talking. Id really wish he'd put his pride aside for me . Im trying to stay calm and i cant talk to him like i want . And i dont want to talk to anyone else about it. His famliy thinks im the asshole. Mines thinks its him . There right though were both fucked. Im scared for the future and this new trip approaches. I want to believe eveything is okay and is going to go well . Unfortunately i have alot of doubt. Which is bad luck. I feel like im holding him back. Usally my feelings are always right so this just feels terrible. He wants me to be different i feel it but i cant. I want him to be different. We cant agree on anything. Are we opposites that attract or people not made for eachother. It hurts and im confused .I want to be strong because i have way more issues than just him. Its worst that my best friend hates him with a passion And i feel so terrible that my friend is going throuh her issues and i cant help. Were both suffering with some of the same problems.