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uhm, I've been scrolling down the cry tag and I just wanted to say that if you're only following me for cry fan art, you might want to unfollow me now.

I'm going to go straight forward and tell you my initiatives for drawing it. (sorry mobile users, this is pretty long //sweats)

But first, background info:

I hardly watch that dude anymore. Yes, if a new game comes out and I want to know what it is about, I'll watch it but otherwise I watch a few eps, and I stop. Might have been because I lost interest in gaming vids //shrugs I still like his LPs more than other LPers but I just don't watch them regularly and I'm not a big fan of him anymore either

I used to get a lot more notes on my fan art than my regular art. like, TONS more. My original art can have a few or even zero notes, but my cry fanart can get me 100+. It's a bit different now that more people discovered me, but drawing fanart has this HUGE appeal to me back then.

I don't watch streams. EVER. I've been to 1 or 2 max but that's it.

Somewhere around the end of last year/start of this year, I started to feel like I'm obliged to draw fanart than to draw it whenever I want. I don't know why, I just had that feeling and I didn't like it. My 2013 was almost entirely dedicated to drawing cry.

People might say that I'm never obliged to do anything and if I don't want to draw anymore, I can just stop and draw whatever I want. If I want to move fandoms, I can just go ahead. but no, I'm a terrible person and I feel insecure venturing outside my comfort zones. I tried fanarting for other fandoms but nope the attention is just not as good as the amount I receive in the cry fandom. This is what kept me drawing in 2014:

I want to maintain my reputation in the fandom. I know that some people from the fandom follow me but I've never really felt like I was accepted into the community. A sense of belonging needs more than a single click on the follow button to develop. Might have been timezones, might have been interests, might have been cultures etc etc idk I felt that if I can't blend in using the other categories, I can just draw more and post more. I'd say that that didn't really work, but it's my method of struggling.

I'm no fan of entirely cutting ties, and I don't like doing anything too clearly when it's something revolving around relationships. As much as I have my personal reasons to avoid the fandom, I don't want to disappear from it entirely -- I mean, what if I suddenly started liking LPs again? Nothing is definite and I don't want to make decisions that I will regret. Drawing is my way of saying "yo im probably not dead here yet".

The main thing tbh: I'm only using the fandom as a way to generate attention to my art. Sometimes I'm in a slump and I'm wallowing in self pity and mourning over how shit my art is and how I feel I'll never improve no matter how hard I try and no one likes my art. But look, if I draw a man in a hoodie with a mask (which is very simple, you don't need to cry over the terrible face anatomy or getting the expression right etc) and post it under the tag I get attention I get notes I get the message that there are, in fact, people that support my art!!!!!!! OK THIS SOUNDS REALLY BAD BUT THIS IS HOW DESPERATE I AM FOR ATTENTION. I'm only human, and I'm the sort of person who needs validation. Sometimes I gain followers over the art I draw too, which is a plus and who doesn't want more followers???

I have nowhere else to go to. Like I said, I don't gain as much attention in other fandoms as I do in the cry one. Other fandoms have overly amazing artists that draws godly fanart where I'm just a small potato with no sense of humor. I tried GDA (Gay Dessert Anime), I've made friends, amazing friends that I will treasure for the rest of my life, but my stuff gets a lot less attention than the cry fandom and sometimes attention is really just something that I need for self validation. I've tried using new identities so I can start over but I'm still lingering and I don't know how I can deal with it. I don't know anyone in a new community I'm bad at initiating convos my art and personality aren't good enough to establish a good reputation in some other fandom. I'm just clinging to this fandom, because this is pretty much all that I have.

I'm only popping by the tag once in ten thousand years to see the drama because that's the sort of person I am. I hate conflict, but I love seeing both sides of any argument. I'm posting art in the tag for personal desires and not for the oh so highly cause of showing my love as a fan to a person/figure/whatever the tag wants to call him these days. Yes I have met really nice people through this fandom and they are fabulous as HECK but either they're too amazing for me or I just don't have the nerve to strike a convo or I'm just not on the same channel as they are. I apologize that I'm just an artist who wants to gain attention and is not extremely invested in gaming and I'll admit that I have felt guilty countless times for borrowing another guy's reputation to build up my own reputation.

I honestly don't care anymore if you guys from the cry fandom or even just people who are following for my art still wants me on their dashboard or whatever but this has been on my chest for quite a while now and gosh it feels amazing for me to let this out. I think it's good to be truthful to yourself and to the people you meet. Hopefully this doesn't damage anything too severely //laughs weakly

If you've read until here, good job and thanks for caring (?)!!! Have a nice day/evening you kind soul uvu!!!!

#text #jintrants #crythings #whoaow how long has it been since I've ranted on this blog

I showed my bro the sup plushies and apparently he wants them too and we're just like DAD PLEASE COME OVER HERE WE WANT TO GET A PLUSH ITS LIKE 176HKD BUT WE WANT IT

#TEXT #IDEK WHAT IM DOING MY ALPACA IS BIGGER AND COSTED LESS #I CAN MAKE ONE TOO BUT ITS NOT OFFICIAL #DAD PLEASE GET ME A SUP PLUSH DAD DAD DAAADDDd #crythings