#ct_17

[christinawouldntwannameether]

If you can imagine your life and your future without me and it doesn't make you sad then I want you to break up with me. If you still think there's a person that can make you happier then I can, and that I can be easily replaced I need you to break up with me. If I'm not your person I need to know. Life already sucks, and I'm already more broken than I let you believe. So if you only care alittle I'll tell you right now we aren't going to make it, and it will break me down. Don't be with me because it's comfortable and familiar or for the wrong reasons because that's my biggest fear. And I don't think you understand how much I put myself out there when it comes to you, and for the most part it makes me feel stupid as opposed to loved.

[christinawouldntwannameether]

I just think if you want to be with someone forever you'd miss them when they're not around. Not at every moment, but every so often when you come across something they love or you're experiencing something you know they'd enjoy. The person you're with shouldn't be like the other people in your life. Because if they were no longer with you should feel lost. People aren't replaceable. And if you feel they are then shame on you. You may find someone to take on they're role but you'll never really replace them. You'll never find someone who looks forward to drinking out of Harry Potter cups with you on a weekend while you lay on the couch soaking up all the love around you. Sure, someone else to play the part but it will never feel exactly the same. Having to tell someone how valuable you are to them isn't love. I can't see myself without you but I often think you are able to bear the thought of going through this life without my broken soul by your side. And if that's how you feel I want to be left alone. Go on and replace me.

[christinawouldntwannameether]

I want it to be me and you in the end so bad.

[christinawouldntwannameether]

You can try and control me, but I'll never stop fighting to be who I was born to be.

[christinawouldntwannameether]

I don't sleep with music playing anymore. It's either because I can fall asleep easier or because I hope to hear your breathe beside me.

[christinawouldntwannameether]

I always feel this way just sometimes things make me forget it for a little while.

[christinawouldntwannameether]

Do whatever you want, but don't you dare discredit the power of prayer.

[christinawouldntwannameether]

I feel everything...every single emotion